Jus another piece in their games

Part 1 : the realisation

So i a few years ago when i felt sad i would say "i feel really depressed"  thinking that it meant really sad. But had no idea what it really meant.  One day this year i said that to someone who actually was depressed. And from there i pretended that i was too. They told me all about depression and i just went along with it. A day or so later i had a huge fight with one of my best friends and that launched me into a real depression... She said cruel things to me over kik. We had a small arguement at school which blew up quickly and i didnt know why. I blamed myself for it. I became best friends with the person who i told that i was "depressed". Since i cant use their real names on here i will call her Calm. The friend i had a fight with will be krazy. So  basically i had a big fight with krazy on a group chat and calm saw and took my side then we talked and became best friends overnight. I realised i was depressed when i found myself too exhausted all the time , i was always sad . I started to self harm. Then came the anxiety. I had the worst panic attacks. People were teasing me at school. Calm always helped me through it though. The best way to describe a panic attacks , its like you can't breathe ,  you hyperventilate you feel dizzy , you lose track of where you are  , you completely panic. So after having a few of those me , mum and calm went to see a doctor. I was put  on a mental health care plan and saw a psychologist. I started to get help but it wasnt working it was like it was making it worse , all the attention.