Goner

Emporors New Clothes-Panic! At The Disco

I walk around my room to my closet. I have 2 hours to get ready so I'm not going to overwhelm myself again by rushing. Plus I want to be early and stay in the back corner of the library where I can be away from all of the demons there lurking to grab and spit at me. I pull out black ripped skinny jeans, black combat boots, black tank top, and red flannel. I lay the clothes out and hop into the shower. Once I was dressed I did my makeup consisting of heavy eyeliner and foundation. I honestly just wear makeup because I like putting it on and heavy eyeliner has a few people leave me alone. I leave my hair the way it is and grab my book bag and leave the house. I walk because why would I dare ride the bus? So more people can harass me? I don't think so. It's bad enough that I have to go to school. I want to be homeschooled but my mother won't let me. But guess who was for 9th and 10th grade? My brother did of coarse because my family adores him. Will. I feel a prick in my heart. I will not cry. I will not cry. I chant this inside my mind until I arrive to hell. Well the doors are open and only the teachers are here. I haven't seen any adults yet. " hello Tara. Glad to have you back after an incident like that. Sorry for your loss." A teacher tells me while walking past. So this is how my day will go. I slide into the bench that nobody sees around a corner in the library. The library is my favorite place because it's quiet and the other kids don't find me in this corner. I pull out my Edgar Allen Poe book full of short stories by him and have time for about 25 minutes before school starts. I look up when I hear the bell ring. I grab my book and bag and run to my 1st period.