Loving him still

Jlo

Bonnie's pov:
We were you know making out in the pool typical movie stuff until...we heard screams Andrew quickly pushed me off. Alittle baby was drowning in the deep end. Andrew quickly got over there picked up the baby and began pushing her chest up and down until water spat up. He sat her up and hugged her as I could here her taking in big gulps of air and her pigment coming back to regular. I sighed in relief. Tears streamed down Andrews face. The mother hugged andrew and kissed him on the cheek. She was not bad looking looked like a good 21. He was eyeing her a bit. Not thinking about what the child has gone through I grew Alittle bit of jealousy. I was pissed. I got my towel and went back to the room. I thought I would have forgotten all those times he cheated on me but for some reason that little thing triggered it. I took a shower then got a comfy blanket. I poured me a glass of wine I found in one of the cabinets. I went outside to the balcony and watched the waves one by one thinking what was he doing I mean it's been over an hour. Maybe I'm overthinking this I sound Alittle annoying. I tried to go to sleep but my overthinking kept me up as soon as I started to drift asleep. I heard a creek in the door and footsteps leading to the bathroom. As the shower turned on. I couldn't breath it was overwhelming. I don't why it was just wow to me. I tried to close my eyes I heard the water stop its really loud.  I sat there clenching my sheets trying to hold back the tear I decided to just breathe. I calmed down I was finally ready to go to sleep. Until he jumped in the bed and wrapped his hands around my waist. I mumbled. B: don't touch me fontenot. He stopped. A: I promise I didn't do anything. I got up and went to the balcony so much to a restful sleep. He came behind me breathing on my neck. B: go mess around with ur jlo and leave me alone. A: I swear to god I didn't sleep with her!  I had tears in my eyes. B: WHY DID U BRING ME HERE! A: I can't tell you and now I'm having second thoughts about it. He went in the room. I followed him. B: I'm going to ask u the nicest way possible, what did u do with her. I was near his chest while he was on the wall. He let out a breath. A: I....I.. Kissed her a couple times made out a few times but that was it I promise you. Tears filled my eyes. B: I... Thought you brought me here because you were ready to actually settle down and continually be happy.. And for one second I thought that I was good enough now that you know I work and we were getting settled, bye. I went into the bathroom and changed into my swim suit i.e. Was sudden I don't know why I would do it after I had bathed but that's what u felt like doing. He just sat there stunned. As I walked out the door with just a sweatshirt on and my bathing suit under but he didn't know that. I ran to the beach and I walked in. The only thing I could see was the moon. I just stood there breathing and trying to calm myself down. An hour later I walked back in I saw Andrew looking out on the balcony. I was as quite as possible. I just layed on the wall staring at him. A: God I like really fxcked up this time. He slammed the rails. A: she's the one and no she's doubting if I'm the one. I walked to the shower and shower washing my hair fully calm. I walked out and got dressed. Then sat in bed. He was still in the balcony talking to himself. I grew the balls to get up and walked behind him. He was messing with his hair and breathing hard. I took a deep breath and then felt his abs from behind. A: shit! I thought you left you scared me. B: I did but sadly every time I leave I end up coming back. He turned around and held my hands looking into my eyes clutching my hands harder and harder. He had tears I barely felt for them now because every time he cheats he cries. B: I'm saying it calmly and if u get mad that's ur problem, why did u cheat on me for about the fourth time? A: I don't know it just happened. He started to scratch the back of his head. B: tell me step by step what happened. I led him to the room and we layed  in bed holding hands. A: I saved the kid which turned out is not hers it her niece she's on a family trip she's from America but her family is from Puerto Rico. Her name is analita. She had her own room she was thanking me and thanking me because she was the only one watching the kid. She gave the kid to her sister than led me to her room. I didn't tell her I had a girlfriend which was on me but I told her I had to go, before that we started making out and i forgot that you were waiting here I remembered when she tried to take my shirt off. I pushed her off and left, Bon, I'm sorry, thus trip was supposed to be our everything. I could barely look at him I was so disgusted by him at the moment. I was still calm surprisingly and I smiled at him. B: you know what it's cool, you know why?, because it took me 4 and a half years to realize you don't really love me  and I don't care anymore how many times I say you do because you keep doing the same shit drew, I bet if I did this disgusting crap you know been called a slut and stuff and u would look at me as if I'm the worst but for you it's suppose to be cool, yeah I get it, drew..... I get it, nite. I faced the other way as tears rolled down my face. Not again. Not to me. I went to sleep.
I woke up the next morning to find no Andrew.