Need you now

I sat in the middle of my hotel room. I took out all of our pictures from all things we did back when we are still in the shrunken state.

Every pictures define the memories I had with Hakase, the kids and with you.

From the camping trips we had. The soccer games we'd watch. The festivals we've been through, some were even taken from the crime scenes we encountered.

Every pictures has a story and every story involved you. You became a huge element in my life without you, I would probably won't be given a second chance to live my life.

All of these photos were scattered on the floor as I looked at them one by one. I miss all of these moments, all of these people and most of all I miss you.

I continue to ransack all of our old pictures when I stumbled in one particular picture.

It is a candid photo of the two of us back on the camping trip where stumbled upon the 4 college students.

I remember this moment when everyone else were eating barbecue. We sat together at the other end talking about friendship. I remember you even told me about Mouri-san's friendship with Suzuki-san.

We are so engrossed in our conversation to even notice Ayumi taking this picture. We look so peaceful as if no one is going to harm us.

How I wish we could be like that everyday. Living in peace, having a normal lives and growing together but, all of it were temporary.

Your life was in a massive hold because of me. Your career, your social life, your relationship with... Mouri-san.

You became involved with the most dangerous organization ever existed because of the drug I created. And you became involved with a murderer like me.

Instead of venting your anger at me, you showed me your kindness and compassion. I was thinking of dying but you are there, always there, to save me.

You gave me a reason to live. You gave me all the things I'd lost, family, friends.

You introduced hope to me, that even though I had done a lot of terrible things, I still deserve to live.

You taught me how to value my life and the people around me.

Even though I'm pushing you away, you still trying your best to reach out for me.

I should not involved you further but each time you do something for me, I can't helped but to open up to you, little by little.

Until I realized I am so deeply involved with you, that I started to fall for you.

I know I should not have these feelings so as soon as the organization collapse and I finish the final stages of the antidote.

I work on it day and night to restore your life and be with your beloved, Mouri-san.

Not long after, I finished the anti-Apotoxin. You took it as I did and we turned to our old self.

As the antidote is finish, so is my existence here.

I told Hakase about me wanting to study zoology in my mother's home country. To find out more about her.

In reality, I just to know who I really am, what am I here for and also, to get away from Japan so I could have time to heal my heart.

After I finalized the documents, I headed to your favorite detective's city, London.

I was not given a chance to tell you personally that I'm going to leave for you seem occupied. You did not even have time to pay a visit at Hakase's. You seem busy to make up some lost time with your beloved.