False Crush

Chapter 1

Casey
He was my bestfriend, he was only a best friend, until... I had a crush on him.

What am I saying? He's Sam Denson. He's my best friend. I musn't have a crush on him, because that can wreck our friendship, and I wouldn't want that to happen. Who wants to lose a bestfriend, anyway?

I had a crush on him ever since the first day of school. He's not that good-looking, but he's smart(probably smarter than me, pfft) and he's good in solving life problems. He's also bipolar, and believe me, you don't wanna hear about it anymore, because you're definitely gonna ask why did I ever have a crush on him.

We became best friends over time, and I guess it was mainly because of a deal. We weren't even close before that deal happened.

The deal was, to make his crush have a crush on him. I will tell the girl all sorts of things good about him(although I can't even think of one), so eventually that girl will have a crush on him, too.

This is heartbreaking, to be perfectly honest. Who would even bridge their crush to another person? Me. You can call me stupid or whatever, but that's what I do. I guess I'll be happy by making other people happy, even though it's hurting me. I'm just happy to see other people happy, because it feels like selfishness if you' re happy with your life, while other people are sad about theirs.

Back to the story. Okay, so uhm... Where was I? Oh. The deal. So as I was saying, if that girl will have a crush on him, he should find me a substitute for a freaking contest I didn't even sign up for, it's like the whole class planned on me. We shook hands that day, and I almost died. Yeah, I know it's weird, because he's not even handsome, and.. Oh forget it.

He's my crush, for Pete's sake.

A few days passed by, and we forgot about the deal, but we didn't forget about each other(don't think of a deep meaning, gosh) and we became close each day. He has his circle of friends, I have mine, which is totally destiny, because he has three friends, and I have three, too. See? I'm crazy. Such a thing could never destiny, I'm just assuming too much.

So we got close, and as well as our circle of friends. When we had nothing to do, we went to the library, and we sat with each other. It was a good thing I can control my excitement, because most of the time he sits in front of me, and I end up stealing glances, like a stalker. It's creepy, yeah, I know, like, I'm not the one who's creepy, but his face. Haha. I'm sorry for being harsh on him, can't avoid it.

Anyways, our closeness continued for 2 months, until we(my friends and I) noticed that she was beginning to be close with another girl, and he only approached us if he needed help with anything. I was so fed up, I ranted in the group chat of our best friends. I said words that were for him, but I didn't mention that it was for him. My other boy best friends were already asking who I was 'hitting' with those words , and he just seenzoned everything. It seemed like he didn't care.

Then I finally said it. I said that it was for him. He left the group chat.