It Started With A Game -5 Seconds Of Summer- (DISCONTINUED. SORRY GUYS.)

Chapter 24

It's been 2 days since mom died. I haven't talked to anyone since then not have I eaten anything. Tomorrow was her funeral, today was her calling hours.

Mom was getting better. She really was, but they didn't realize we heart was going bad.

She had a heart attack... And it killed her.

And now I feel like I'm falling apart. So many times I said I hated my mom for not coming back. So many times I didn't try to call or email or anything.

I feel like this is my fault. If she wasn't stressing about me, then she may have been healthier.

I'm so fucking stupid.

I stared at the girl in the mirror. She looked semi decent. She had bags under her eyes and her brown hair was perfectly curled. Her eyes were dull and she looked pale.

Her black dress cascaded down her body, stopping mid thigh. Their was a white belt across her stomach, and a pink rose in her hair.

I sighed looking away from the mirror. I had DM'd Beau asking if he got the news about my mom, which he dis, so Gina and the 5 boys are going to be their tonight. Meaning I have to see Luke. Then Ari and Darcy are coming. Darcy never met my mom, but she's coming to comfort me. I find that very sweet. Such an angel.

But I'm already emotionless to start out with. I haven't talked to my boyfriend for ages along with my friends. Luke kissed me, and now we've been ignoring each other. Ari and Jai have been getting closer. Beau has been meeting up with this girl named Amber. She sounds like a lovely girl, I'm meeting her tonight.

Stacy came running into my room in a beautiful black fluffy dress, her hair was straightened, and her blue eyes popped out. She smiled hugging my legs, since she couldn't reach my waist. I picked her up carrying her downstairs with me. I feel like Stacy knows I don't want to talk, and that's why she hasn't tried talking. She's been smiling, frowning, and doing motions with her hands. That's how we've been communicating these past 2 days. She's been sleeping in my room every night. I would watch her sleep, not in the creepy way, and I would just think about everything.

"Hey sweetie." Dad croaked giving me a hug. I hugged him back as best as I could with me still carrying Stacy. Uncle Stanly and Auntie Sarah had left already, as they were going to pick up flowers. Roses and daisies to be exact. Those had always been my moms favorite flowers. Boston ran to my dad in a little tuxedo.

These kids are growing up fast... I thought to myself. I walked out of the house to be met with the Brooks brothers and Gina. Gina smiled sympathetically at me and hugged me. Stacy let out a little whine. She didn't fully understand what was going on, but she understood that she was never seeing my mom again. Beau came up to me giving me a side hug. I rested my head on his shoulder for a second then pulled away. Ari was the next to give me a hug, "Remember the happy times." She whispered in my ear pulling away. I smiled for the first time in 2 days, well real smile. She grinned at me giving me a thumbs up. Jai came next giving me a brotherly hug. Then Luke gave me a hug too.

"I'm sorry about everything." He mumbled holding me tighter. I put one arm around him still holding Stacy, and hugged him back to the best of my ability.

I nodded telling him I understood, but I really didn't. Oh well Eva just go with it. Luke pulled away walking with Gina to their car. I waited patiently for my dad and Boston and then we followed the Brooks.

The drive was short, maybe 10-15 minutes. But it was so silent, I almost missed talking. I actually did miss talking, because when I did talk I usually let some of my feelings go. But now their just building up inside me... Killing me. It hurts.