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Chapter Nine~ Imagination

---Felix POV---

Ryan went to his room and I sat back on the couch. Despite him telling me I hadn't hurt him, I knew my behaviour was the reason he broke that damn mirror. How could I be so selfish? How could I treat him like that?

And that weird thought snapped inside me.

What if ... Ryan had a crush on me?

Come on, Felix. This is just silly. Ryan's not gay. What if he's gay? I didn't know that.

Was I bi?

I had had only girlfriends my whole life and I don't think I've ever been attracted to any guy.

If Ryan was gay... would I have a problem with it?

I'm so stupid. Why would I have a problem with it? He's my best friend, no matter what.

But what if he had a CRUSH on me?

That would be different. And ... awkward. And it's not that I can ask him. Let's just not kiss each other again.

"Felix" Ryan's voice brought me back to reality.

"Y-Yes?" I stuttered. Questions I so wanted to ask him ran through my mind.

Are you bi? Have you ever liked a guy before?

Do you like boys?

Do you like me ?

"I think you should take a shower too" he smiled and ran his fingers through his hazel hair.

I nodded, almost unable to speak. My knees felt so weak when I remembered the events in the beach. Then the weirdest and craziest thought came up in my head, making my heart beat faster and faster.

Was I in love with him??

"I'm gonna make dinner" his soft voice broke the silence.

"O-Okay.." I replied quietly and walked into the bathroom. The mirror was still broken in pieces. The sink and the floor had spilt blood and  pieces of glass all over them. I needed to fix this. I  wasn't mad  at Ryan. It was not his fault. I knew it was all my fault. I cleaned up the mess and then took off all my clothes and got in the shower. The question was in my head the whole time.

What if I liked him? Liked him more than just friends?

I closed my eyes and remembered again what had happened at the beach.

WARNING: This is an R rated 18+ part of the story. If you're not mature enough please do not continue reading. You have been warned ;)

I could feel Ryan's hot lips pressed on mine, my tongue fighting with his, his moans as I was licking and sucking his neck. I felt something weird. I looked lower.

I was hard.

Fuck.

I remembered my hand slipping in his shorts, almost in his underwear. I couldn't help but let my hand trail lower. I couldn't help but allow to myself to jerk off.

Oh, God, I shouldn't be doing this...

I felt a shiver as I started rubbing my member faster.

This was so wrong. I just couldn't help it. I needed it ...

My back touched the cold tiles on the wall. I imagined Ryan, now, under the hot water with me, his naked body rubbing against mine, his lips sucking my neck and trailing kisses all over my torso. I needed to ... finish this ... I had to ...

My hand moving up and down faster and harder as I imagined him jerking me off, his hot breath on my neck... My knees felt so weak as I shivered in pleasure... I let out a moan, hope not loud enough for him to hear what I had been doing.

I couldn't stop ...

Even if it's wrong...

I needed to...

I couldn't make any complicated thoughts now, if Ryan was bi or if I was bi, all I needed to do now was to feel...

Fuck, I'm so c-close to...

I moaned as I felt my hands wet and when I opened my eyes, I saw my white liquid all over my palms.

I laid back on the cold wall and let out a sigh.

Why did I always had to be so insensitive? Why did I feel this way? Why did I do this? Why the fuck did I want him so so so bad?

  End of R rated part the young, innocent kids can read on now :P Jk :)

I heard a knock on the bathroom's door that made me jump.

"Are you okay there?" I heard Ryan's voice out of the room.

I stopped the water and with red cheeks - like he magically knew what I had been doing in here and stuttered" Y-Yeah, I'm f-fine" God, how was I going to face him after this? Fuck, fuck, fuck!

I hopped out of the shower and wrapped a blue towel around my waist.

If the mirror wasn't broken already, I would  punch it, I thought.

As I walked out of the bathroom, an amazing smell hit my nose. Like cheese, um, tomato and ham? I wonder what Ryan is up to.

"Hey friend" Ryan's voice made me jump. Man, I was feeling so embarassed! Ryan was smiling and oh crap, he was looking at my chest.

"H-Hey , I'm gonna put some clothes on a-and c-come back right awayy...okay-y?" I stuttered like an idiot.

"Um.. okay" he replied and looked away.

I ran to my room and put on a pair of beije pants and my green t-shirt  and my nike shoes. I quickly dryed my hair off and went downstairs trying to stop thinking about Ryan ... in a ... weird way.

I went in the kitchen to find a big surprise.

The kitchen table had two wine glasses on it wait I said BIG?  I meant HUGE - amazing pizza, toasted bread, a bottle of red wine and candles lighten around it.

"R-Ryan..? What..i-is this?" I asked, not being able to hide my big grin.

"Just a gift for saying thanks"  he showed his bandaged hand and smiled.

He was so cute.

Felix! Don't do this!

Not cute ....

Just ...

Friendly??

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