He Made Me Feel (Boyxboy)

Chapter 5 How did this happen?

Chapter 5 How did this Happen?

Ben Pov

Does he even know what he's asking?

Is this because he feels bad for me?

I don't need anyone feeling bad for me; like I mentioned, I'm okay.

"Um, how about no?" I said. Shaking my head on how weird this guy could be.

"Aw, come on, we could be friends." He said.

Oh, friends, that's what he meant; of course, that's what he would mean. Why did I think he could have meant something more?

Did I actually want him to mean it another way? I don't even know myself.

This feeling that I am feeling is all new for me.

He thinks that we could be friends?

There's no way we could be friends because I am already attracted to him.

"Sure, Jesse. We can try to be that." I said to him; he looked relieved. A smile appeared on his face.

I still do not know what else to say.

I wanted something more than friendship, but that is not allowed.

He doesn't want that after all.

"Where do you want to go anyways? Like what do you want to see around this area? You can't tell me you want me to show you around and not tell me what you want to see Jesse. It doesn't work out like that." I said to him.

He chuckled and shrugged as if what I said was not a big deal. I picked up the pace again, and Jesse caught up with me. I decided to walk steadily.

"You know I want to go anywhere you want to go," he said, and I rolled my eyes. Fine, he wants to play this game. Fine, we can play this game.

"Let's go to my favorite park," I said, looking up at him; damn him for being so tall.

"We can do that, do we have to take another uber or?" Jesse asked.

It was pretty close from here.

"We could walk there; it isn't that far from here at all," I said, knowing how to get from the park from here.

"Okay sounds good." He said as we continued walking.

"Sooo... what's your favorite color?" He asked me.

What's up with that question?

"Gold." I replied.

He stared at me with amusement in his eyes.

"Gold?" he asked, and I nodded.

What's wrong with liking gold?

"What's yours?" I asked him.

"Black," he said with a smile on his face.

I stopped walking and looked at him.

His favorite color was black? Yet he found humor in me liking gold?

"I like the shade black. When you stare at a black wall for too long, you notice that it's actually changing. That it's letting you in." He said, I raised a brow to that. I never thought of it that way.

"We've reached the park," I said when we got to where the entrance would be.

"I'll show you my favorite spot," I said, leading him in.

"So is this where you come, Ben, when you want to escape the chaotic world?" He asked.

I turned my attention toward him, and I found myself feeling odd. Honestly, this was the first time I have ever brought anyone here.

"Yes," I said, but it came as a whisper.

"But this is my favorite spot," I said, standing in front of the spot I love to come to. It was in front of a lake surrounded by trees, the most beautiful scene in the park.

I walked ahead, enjoying the view. I could never get tired of this beautiful view. It just brings me to ease every single time I see it.

"Wow, the view is beautiful. I could get used to this," he said, and I nodded, agreeing. I turned around to tell him how I found this place, but I found him standing right behind me, staring at me.

I felt my heartbeat and saw the look he was giving me. Wait, I'm reading too much into this, right?

Maybe he found it amusing that I can get like this over this place?

"Am I blocking the view for you?" I asked, planning to move out of the way so he could see what I saw.

"You're part of the view." Jesse said. His voice held no humor.

I felt myself getting heated up.

Why is he saying things like that?

"Don't say that." I said, wrapping my arms around me.

"Don't say what?" he asked, walking towards me.

"Don't say stuff like that; it confuses me even more," I said, looking at him.

Why was he coming closer?

"Confuses you about what?" He asked, standing in front of me.

"It makes me feel like you're flirting with me or something, it's confusing me." I said, avoiding his gaze.

I felt him wrap his arms around me and pull me into a hug.

He's being touchy again.

"You seem to have forgotten what I said earlier. I want to get to know you more. If it makes you feel any better, we can start as friends, and I have been flirting with you from day one. I want to be in your life, Ben. I want to be around you. So, there's no way I am going to stop saying stuff like that, especially not with you," he said, kissing my forehead.

What did he just say?

Did he really just say that?

"Are you gay?" I asked, pulling away to look at him.

"I'm not gay, but I know that I am attractive to you. You're the first guy I have ever been attracted to. I also want to say what I have been feeling for you is new for me, I've never felt this way for anyone I've ever been involved with either. It's new for me, something that I wasn't expecting. But I want to try this; I know I want to be with you. So I'm asking you to let me be in your life. I'm not going to beat around the bush about it." He said, his tone serious.

Can I do this? Can I let him into my life? A loner like me, who's never been involved with anyone like this before. Can I learn to trust someone and let him in?

"What do you say Ben?" Jesse whispers.

"Okay." I found myself saying it, not knowing the relief I felt after I said it myself.

Jesse smiled immediately after hearing my response.

"Thank you, Ben."

***Kassandra Speaks***

WOAH! It's been good

I love this couple.

I mean, they're my babies.

Haha, I love them.

Anyway, this story has been the bomb even though I am slow

with updates.

CURSE YOU SCHOOL AND HAVING A LIFE

But I will update my Dolls soon.

Enjoy mwah

Xoxoxo-Kassandra Vivu

Happy Holidays to you!