First sight

Lies

So we are in hollywood now and it's so amazing the lights,the fashion ,and everything else it's all just so new.sometimes I feel like its a dream and sometimes a nightmare. Two weeks ago............... I arrive in hollywood and get off the plane mathew and I are in the airport waiting for are luggage but it never came. All we had now was our carry on which had maybe one or two shirts a pair of pants and maybe a skirt. Good thing I still have all the money. So the record producer was waiting for us he got us a really nice hotel and all are expenses were paid for. Lucky for us he bought us all the new hottest fashions. So are first concert in hollywood is in three days I'm so excited i can hardly bare it. mathew always practices its my song so I know it by heart and don't need to practice he always yells at me to practice so I only do it when he is around and as soon as he leaves I stop. The other reason I don't always practice is so my voice doesn't go hoarse but he doesn't know that and it's so funny. The next day he is even more stricter. He's starting to agitate me but I can't tell him that would just be mean, rude, an painful for me so I deal with it. So he's yelling and finally I just snap I'm cursing him out an inching toward him and he's backing away. Finally after I calm down he's just shocked like what just happened. I leave the room and don't come back. 

Today is the day of the concert and he didn't show up so we had a fill in and afterwards I found him but I did nothing wrong so I'm not gonna apologize . We look at each other and just glare I guess we broke up but i don't know for sure I just leave it at that. A few days later he finally apologizes but I don't know if he really meant it but it's okay I'm forgiving . He asks me on a date but I don't like crowds so I'm like sure? And he's like that's great! But the worst part is is that I don't have akane to protect me if something happens. The next day is our date and I get dressed all fancy and Im really happy I hope it goes well my fingers are crossed. The place is totally unfamiliar to me so I'm sticking to mathew . I'm so scared it's not funny Im about to cry and he's just smiling away. After we eat we're walking down the road and there is a lot of people then mathew looks at me smiles and just let's go of my arm and leaves me there I get so scared I start to cry and fall to my knees I'm shacking and curled up on the ground. People start to gather around me and stair at me like a freak i feel like I'm dead. Then someone's hand reaches out to me I look up just like when I met katoru. Why? Why every time does this happen some helps me. NO! No this is not going to happen again I give up the first time I trust someone this happens I should have never forgave him .I get up wipe the tears from my face and go to hotel. When I get there all of mathew's stuff is gone and there on the bed is a note. I'd don't even read it the first thing I see is I NEVER LOVED YOU IT WAS ALL A JOKE .  

I can't take it anymore. If i hadn't dated him none of this would have happened never again will I trust anyone but I should have known this would happen because me getting a boyfreind is unreal, a cruel fantasy and I knew that when he asked me out. The end of my life began after that happened .I couldn't eat ,i couldn't sleep all I could do was sit and think. The record producer gave me a call and said I have a job offer but by the time I relived what he was saying my other phone was ringing it was a restricted number. I answer hesitantly and it's the job offer so I hang up my other phone and I'm talking to the offer person and they say they want me to join them.