Perfectly imperfect

chapter one: Melissa

Hi. My name is Melissa. My full name is Melissa Elizabeth Charlotte June Joanne Jane Maitland. I know it's way to long but it's all the names my parents wanted to call me (apart from Maitland because that's my surname) so they called me Melissa and put all the other names as my middle names. Everyone at school calls me Millie (including the teachers) but when they are mad at me they call me Melissa that's how you know I've annoyed them. To be honest I get called Melissa more than Millie because everything I do I always mess up. Everything I do is always wrong. I'm just never good enough for anyone not even myself. Sometimes I feel like the world would just be better off without me like life would be better for everyone if I just disappeared without a trace without any fuss or commotion (not that there would be anyway) if I just died. Atleast everyone would be happy then at least I won't be able to dissapoint them and they won't be able to hurt me. I've been feeling like this since I was 8 and I'm 12 now. I have spent 4 years of my life trying to be perfect trying to make everyone happy trying to get someone anyone proud of me. As you can see it never worked things never got better only worse. I'm just a 12 year old girl who never gets anything right and dissapoint's everyone. Well except my coach. He always calls me his little star and says I'm the best gymnast he's ever trained. Somehow I just don't believe him. You see I have never gone through a beam routine without wobbling I have never one any competitions I have only ever come 4th or below. Coach (he's called Jackson but we all call him Jack) shouldn't be so proud of me but for some reason he is I just can't figure out why. I love gymnastics not because of the pretty clothes and all of the sparkles on the leotards but because it gives me a chance to be myself it gives me a chance to tell people how I'm feeling but in a less direct way. Everything is changing. I'm losing all my friends everyone hates me and I just don't know if I can do this anymore.
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Hey so this is chapter one of my story I hope you liked it and if you did don't forget to vote comment and follow my account. If you have any ideas on how to make this story better please comment or if you have a character in mind (it could be you or someone made up) please comment their name (full) gender hobbies 3 words to describe them and anything else you want to add. Chapter 2 will be coming out very soon and I hope you will keep on reading this story thank you.