Coffee Stains - A novel based on The Fooo Conspiracy

37. I figured.

"Klara!! what the hell have you gotten yourself into?!" Lou screams loudly and I can not hear what the others are saying. I try not to show the pain that rushes through my spine because I know they're being loud on purpose. To punish me for my reckless behavior. I try to sit up as good as I can and welcome my friends. "Hi guys!" I smile. I'm happy to see them. Of course. But there just looking at me weirdly and I wanna know what that's all about. But I am already guessing what it is. "Guys I'm sorry I never said goodbye... Please don't be mad at me?!"
"That's not why we're mad." Lou says with an angry face. "Then why do you all look like I have just eaten the last piece of chocolate?" I ask again.
"Because you never called to tell us you were OK! Which, may I just add, you are clearly not!" Lou says.  "Thank you?" I reply on her insulting but non the less justified comment on my looks. "I don't mean your looks silly. You look stunning as always, I meant your emotional condition." She says always knowing what I mean. "What's wrong with my 'emotional condition'?" I put the words in metaphorical quotation marks.
"It means you've been emotionally breaking down slowly, but faster with every passing day." Ariana steps in taking the word.
"Bullshit! I'm fine." I say stubborn and cross my arms in front of my chest.
"Honey only the fact that you got drunk last night in proof that you've missed me." I hear Oscar say from his arm chair. "Oh shut your mouth you arrogant ass." I shout over to him in anger. I get punished for that action right away. Pain. It, once more, floats through my head and gives me a hard time. Oscar only chuckles. After I told him the truth about that thing with peter, his self-esteem slash arrogance has returned. "Guys maybe you should go.. I'm not feeling too good and I'd like to take a shower." I say weakly. I mean sure half of that is pretend but I do want to shower.  "OK you're right we shouldn't punish you. We should support you as much as you need it." Ariana says and smiles at me. But its not her usual pretty, nice smile. Its a pity smile. Its the worst punishment she could do to me. But they all leave. All but Oscar. I expected nothing else. He closes the door behind the others and turns around to me his hands in the pockets of his usual black skinny jeans. A lick of his hair fell into his face and covers one of his eyes. The look at him gives me the chills. "So?" I ask curious what he's up to. "So? You didn't sleep with peter?" He asks and I should've known his intention. "I did not." I answer. Then I get up from the bed. As I try to stand on my feet, I almost fall on the floor gasping of pain. I must've sprained my ankle during my party thingy yesterday. Oscar is already next to me helping me stand. "Its OK I can walk. I'm not a granny." I grumble and push him away from me. "Oh I know... I just wanted to touch you." He smirks.
"I figured." I say nodding towards his hand laying on my butt. He doesn't seem to want to move away from me. "Oscar get your hand off me." I say calmly but he feels the tension in my voice and moves away from me.
"Can't we just leave the past behind us? We've both made mistakes." He looks at me from three feet away. "Oscar..."
"Oh don't start with me. You know I'm right. Stop being so stubborn and let us be together." He interrupts me. He is right though. And I do want to be with him. But why not let him suffer just a little longer. I'm evil.
I manage to stand up straight. Its painful, but it works. I walk a few steps over to the wall. The bathroom is just a few feet away and so I slowly walk to its direction holding on to the wall. I am not to reach it. Because Oscar suddenly stands next to me. He captures me between his arms and turns me so I have to look at him. "I know you still love me." His breath gently brushes over my face and a shiver makes its way over my body. "What because of a Snapchat story?" I say breathless. I don't sound as secure as I meant to. My voice is shaking.
Oscar chuckles again. And then his lips are there. On mine. The place where I wanted them so badly. But back to my plan. I don't know how, but somehow I manage to push Oscar off me and part our kiss. He sights and twists his eyes. Then he stapes back. "You must really hate me to make me wait this long." He growls and I almost want to overcome the gap between us and loose my self in him. "Oh common! Why can't you just forget what happened? Fine I kissed someone else! But she wasn't even that pretty! And besides: you were the one to make me think you slept with someone else! So really, I'm the one to be mad at you for lying to me. My reaction to it was natural! What??" While he was screaming at me I have started to smile widely. "You're right and I love you!" I grin.
"What?" He asks perplex. "I said.." "Oh I know what you said I just have to process it for a second." He says. Obviously he was expecting this from me. He always knows my reaction. Its what I love him for.