Vian POV
Right after graduation, nagpakasal kami ni Lean. I tried to initiate for our honeymoon but she insisted that we should just do it when we're old enough since we're still young even though we got married. Dang right.
It never left my eye how Lean stared at my twin, the way she looks at him is totally different to the way she looks at me, she looks at me with admiration while... he looks at my twin as if he was everything. He meant more, perhaps?
But she chose me. That is the only thing that matters right now, she chose me and not my twin, I am the apple of her eye, I am her husband... but... it just feels that even if we are married, it feels like Lean was never my wife, we've been living together for almost a year now after getting married and we never had any intimate connection, not a honeymoon, no nothing.
Hinagkan ko si Lean, I encircled my arms around her waist and sniffed her hair since I was at her back, "Lean... when do you plan us to make our son?"
"Daughter, Vian. Daughter." Pagtatama ni Lean, "and we're still young to think that."
"Pero kasal na tayo." I protested. "Nothing's going to be wrong if I get you pregnant."
"Kahit na." Kumawala siya sa yakap niya sa akin at saka siya tumingin sa mga mata ko, "let's just wait untill we are twenty-five."
"Five years! Too long for waiting, Lean!" Asar na sagot ko, I frustratedly combed my hair with my fingers and slouched on the couch behind me, "I want us to make one, now. I don't care if our baby will be a he or she," I paused, "I just can't wait any longer, Lean. Five years is just too long..."
"Bakit ba parang atat na atat ka?"
"Because... I want us to make a family now." I stood up and approached her, nilapit ko ang labi ko sa labi niya hangga't sa nagkadikit kami, I kissed her... my hands gently cupped her cheeks and she moaned, damn, I'm getting a hard on...
She pushed me away, "Vian naman..." umiwas siya ng tingin.
"Tell me, Lean... why don't you want us to do it?"
"Dahil hindi ito ang tamang panahon, Vian." Simpleng sagot niya, "please, huwag kang atat. Hindi pa ako handang magkaanak-"
"But I want my baby now!"
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Lean POV
Nagulat ako sa biglang pagsigaw ni Vian sa akin, napakagat ako ng babang labi ko at yumuko, "I-I'm sorry, Lean..." hinila ako ni Vian at niyakap, "I-I... I never meant to shout..."
"A-Ayos lang."
He sighed as he hug me, "I just love you so damn much, Lean... I'm only afraid that if we don't seal this marriage right now, what if you slip away?" He groaned at the idea, "I can't let that happen, Lean."
"Kasal naman na tayo, Vian. Isn't that enough?"
"Marriage doesn't mean a thing if there's no child." He muttered.
"How about love, Vian? Will love make marriage meaningful? Because... I feel that to you."
"Then make love to me."
Hinila ako ni Vian, his kisses were the sweetest, his hands found the open way of my shirt and slid it gently, his palms carressed my back until it reached the strap of my bra, he unhooked it and I felt my bra fall inside my shirt, "V-Via-"
He stopped me with a kiss, it was an aggressive kiss, his lips were deeply pressed against mine that it resulted to hurting, I gasped for air when he stopped.
"L-Lean..." Tinignan niya ako sa mata, his eyes so dark with lust, "I can't take it anymore..."
He pushed me to the couch and trapped me, ramdam ko ang pag-init ng katawan ni Vian, hell I don't even have an idea how he got naked so fast with all his clothes scattered on the tiled floor with my bra.
"Vian! Hindi pa ako handa..."
Kumuyom ang kamao niya, "is it Gian?"
"H-Huh?"
"Siya ba ang rason, Lean?" His face wasn't angry, it was soft and desperate, "do you love my brother?"
"Vian, ano ba ang pinagsasabi mo? Papakasalan ba kita kung mahal ko siya?"
"Then tell me right in front of my face," nilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin, "say it, Lean. Say you love me, you never told me once those three words."
Lumunok ako. Umiwas ako ng tingin but his hands stopped it, he forced my face to look at him. His eyes were no longer dark and lustful, it was now only glinting hope, "I-I..." I gulped. "I love you, Vian. I love you."
He smiled. "I love you too."
Ramdam ko ang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko, once again, he claimed my lips, but it was no longer aggressive, it was one long passionate kiss, once he ended it, he took all his clothes and wore it, "let's wait for five years then before making a child. I'm going to trust on those three words you told me, Lean."
I smiled, "thank you, Vian."
He shrugged.
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Gian POV
"Another Bacardi." Sabi ko sa bartender na agad namang sumunod, nagulat ako dahil may biglang ahas na pumulupot ng kamay sa leeg ko. Tinignan ko iyon, si Kim. Ngumisi ako, ramdam ko ang pagtama ng alak sa akin.
I looked at her, she was wearing a slutty dress that reveals too much skin, it was fit and tight making her boobs look bigger, I huffed. "Gian..." She closed the inch between our faces and kissed me.
Images of Lean came into my head and I responded to the kiss, hell I don't care if people are looking, this is a bar, this scene is to be expected.
Umungol si Kim noong hawakan ko ang braso niya, hinihingal kami noong tumigil kami sa paghalik kasabay ng paglagay ng bartender ng alak na in-order ko sa harap, kinuha ko iyon at dali na namang tinumba ang baso.
Bakit kahit lasing ako si Lean pa rin ang nasa isip ko? Damn. I should be mad at her for choosing my brother! But I fcking love her!
Umupo sa tabi ko si Kim, "we will do it again, right?" Ngumisi siya, tinignan ko siya at hinalikan ulit niya ako, damn, I should tell her to stop putting lipsticks when she plan to kiss me, I can taist the bloody paint and it's turning me off.
If only I can kiss Lean's naturally red lips instead of another slut... but dang it, she's married! Worse, to my twin!
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