Sweet Dreams

Chapter 6

The new week rolled in. My happiness has grown. I feel ecstatic everyday. As for my dreams, they are getting more and more and mild. What was I thinking? They were just dreams! Why was I getting so worked up over them? I'm just expecting them to drift away from my mind very soon. Leave my unconscious mind in peace.

I almoat can't wait for school! I decided I won't be the 'Loner in the Corner' but the 'Beaming ray of Sunshine'. I'll try to make some new friends. Which will be hard because I'm not very good at keeping a conversation but I'll try.

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In homeroom, I was talking up a storm wich was very surprising to me! I made Becca Dannings (one of the most popular girls in the 9th grade) burst out laughing. I wasn't completely sure what I was saying, but it was working!

I looked over to the other side of the room and saw Jordan all alone. He was sitting at his desk. Staring darkly at me. We lock eyes for what seemed like eternity. But I broke the gaze and brushed him off and listen to Becca ramble on and be social for once.

For the first time of my life, I was invited by Becca to sit with her and her friends at lunch. I was surprised of how welcoming they were. Before they barley even bothered to look my way. They let me in on the most reccent gossip. To be honest, I find gossip very annoying so I don't give a flying flip of whats juicy scoop at our school but smiling and nodding seem to satisfy. They actually told me about my reputation before, they said I was a 'Blind Beauty'. According to them, a 'Blind Beauty' is a person who puts on a profile and avoids what others think of them. (In my case, I put on a loner profile when actually, everyone wanted to get to know me and be my friend. They actually said some of the most hottest, most popular guys wanted to date me.)  I never really noticed how people really thought of me. I never really cared that much, having bigger problems to deal with. Becka and her friends seem genuinely nice. But I don't know how long I can handle smiling until my cheeks cramp.

Jordan has been staring me down everywhere. In class, in the halls, during lunch. Everytime I see him, he's flocked by girls. But his cold glare locks on me. It doesn't last long because whoever I'm talking with always notices me then forces my attention back on them. I'm not sure if I can get used to this Social Butterfly. Having just a few close friends seemed a lot more easier. Oh well.

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"This would look sooo cute on you!" Scarlett squealed. She held up a sparkly baby blue dress up to my chest. I stared at myself in the mirror. "Scarlett, its just a party, not a ball." I laugh. The tight corset had jewels and loads of sequences. The ruffled bottom fell to my knees. This was going to be my very first big Highschool party. Becka invited me a few days ago and I've been excited ever since. I'm also a bit nervous because this is not my scene.

"Right!" She said and rushed back into her closet. I smile and rolled my eyes. Scarlett is really going overboard. She's been to parties like these before, but when she heard this was my first one, she promised to make me look 'Fantabulous' (her words not mine).  "So maybe this one?" she asked ad she came back out and held up a cute green sundress. "Its okay, Scarlett. I'll just wear this." I say and gesture to the outfit I'm wearing. I was wearing a lacey bustier top with high waisted, bleach washed denim shorts and a few necklaces comleted with simple black flipflops. I looked as if a tumblr girl threw up all over me.

She stood there and bit her lip. "Its cute, Jade. Really! But..." she trailed off. But she just shrugged and retreated back into her closet.

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Becka doesn't live very far away. We were able to walk to her house no problem. As we arrived at the end of Becka's driveway, my heart skipped a beat. I have never been to a party before. I am so nervous I just want to turn around and run back home. But there was another part of me that wants to just get inside already! Well, theres no turning back now.