Letters to Juliet (1D/Niall Horan FanFiction)

Chapter 30

Chapter 30

*Juliet’s POV*

After I read Niall’s letter, I backed off from everybody. I focused on my studies hard, getting far above average grades and receiving several honors for many things. I didn’t talk to anybody anymore—not even Maci, whom I shared a flat with. I cried myself to sleep most nights and I had terrible dreams. I think my mind was still in shock. It’s like my heart wants to be numb, to not feel again. I feel like I am in an alternate world, where the population is me. Every time someone mentions his name, I fall apart. I cry myself to sleep every night, repeating his name over and over again in my head. I pick up my phone like I’m going to call him and accept his apology, but I can’t bring myself to press the call button.

And my parents. I used to call them and Skype them and text them at least once a day, but I haven’t talked to them since the whole ordeal started. They probably have seen me on the news and pictures of Niall and I holding hands, smiling at each other, and sometimes even kissing plastered anywhere and everywhere.

I tried and tried and tried to pay attention to the professor’s words, but I couldn’t focus. I was sleep deprived and hungry. I hadn’t eaten in the last 2 days, but I didn’t want to. I couldn’t. Studies were becoming so hard. Niall would call me and encourage me to do my best, but now Zayn and Liam were the only ones that called. Louis tweeted me—as he never answered his texts—and he talked about every subject but Niall, thank goodness. But without the extra boost from Niall, it all seemed pointless.

The shrill ring of the bell brought me out of my trance as Mrs. Waller—the teacher—motioned for me to come over to her desk.

“Juliet, are you ok?” she asked, concern brimming her voice. “Yeah. I guess.” I answered. “You’ve just been so …zoned out for the past week. It’s really weird to see my best student like that.” She inquired and I nodded. I couldn’t believe that she had noticed, but strangely, it didn’t surprise me. “Do you want to talk about it?”

“I’ve tried talking about it many times, but it never seems to help,” My voice broke and my relentless tears were ready to flow. “Well, try again. Is it about a boy, dear?” she asked. I nodded and I felt a few tears start to fall, leaving splatters on my grey shirt. She used her thumb to wipe away one of my tears.

Mrs. Waller was like a second mother to me. She was always there to help me with my studies. Well, she was there to help with just about anything. She was the one person I couldn’t go to since my mum and dad aren’t here.

“I feel really bad. He ended our relationship over something pointless. And then we wrote letters to each other to express our feelings and I said some mean things, whilst he apologized. He wants me to accept his apology but after reading my letter, he may not want me back.” I sighed, tears coming faster and faster. She nodded, pondering her options before opening her mouth to speak again.

“If he loves you, he’ll come back, sweetie. Give him a few more days. If he contacts you in anyway, consider your options and do what your heart tells you.” I chuckled humorlessly at her cliché statement. She was just like me: extremely cliché and cheesy.

“Ok.” I said. She nodded. “Now go get some tea and take a rest. You look like a dead person!” she laughed along with me. She was right. I needed to sleep on this. And no matter what I look like, I am going in to Starbuck’s to get a tea. I need that sugar.

I went back to the house and took a nice long nap. The nap was so nice, I slept from noon until 3 am. I woke up with a headache. I took a Tylenol and prayed it would help.

Maci was sitting on the couch texting, probably Liam. They were in America so Maci always found the weirdest times to text him. I went and sat next to her and she handed me a cup of tea. I smelled the sweet, steamy beverage and then took a drink. I sighed and she just hugged me. “I love you.” She whispered and I smiled for real for the first time in a week. “Love you too.” I replied. Her phone and I saw I was right. The text was from Liam. She giggled a little then replied. I guess my face fell as she was getting texts from her boyfriend when I am still breaking. She hugged me.

“Liam said that Niall is still very in love with you. You’re all he talks about and he every time he does talk about you he breaks down in tears. Come here I need to show you this interview.” She pulled me to the computer room where my MacBook was sitting on the desk. She opened up YouTube and pulled up an interview from yesterday. Niall just sat there, not smiling, his ocean orbs not lit up as usual.

When they asked questions about me, he would choke on his words and talk quietly. Before the video was done, I was crying harder than I had this whole time. “Maybe you should just accept his apology Jules. He obviously feels guilty and you need to tell him he isn’t and you love him still.” She pleaded. “I don’t know, I just don’t think I can talk to him. What if he doesn’t pick up?” I wondered aloud. “Oh he will, trust me.” She then walked out and I padded silently across the wooden floor to my room.

I didn’t sleep, just laid there, wondering about everything. I don’t want to call and then be humiliated because he doesn’t answer. I’m such a fool. Not being able to do this and worrying this much is stupid and I should just do it.

I used a shaky hand to pick up my phone. I clicked his contact. His picture was a picture Delilah took on my phone of him kissing my cheek while I was sitting on his lap. We were on the couch in the living room, watching football. I smiled at the look on my face. I was blushing and looking down at my lap with a shy smile.

I pushed the call button and waited. On the 5th ring, I was about to hang up when I suddenly heard his voice on the other line.

“Juliet?”

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Hello Lovelies! I'm very sorry I forgot to update on Saturday! I was super busy and I had a bunch of things going on. I didn't have a chapter written or anything until this morning. I can't give an extra update as I did on the Ultimate Gift but I can try to make the next few chapters longer for you.

So what did you think? You like??

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Lots of Love,

Sydney♪♫

PS Grade 8 is the video on the side. Just enjoy!

PPS Juliet is on the side if you wanted to know what she looks like. I will put pics of the others too :)