Burn *Shailee* *Hailee Steinfeld and Shawn Mendes*

Why Do I?

Just watching you love some else...it hurts. More than anything. Why don't you just leave me? Why make it harder? Why stay with me when you really don't love me? We...just don't have that spark anymore. We're just burning away.
                                  Love, Hailee

I closed my diary and hid it. I poured all of my emotion in it. This is the 5th night Shawn hasn't showed up, and I know exactly that he's with her. I just gave up on him. I want to leave so bad, but I can't let go...because I still love him and I'll regret leaving. I want him to leave me. He just watches me suffer. Tears fell from my eyes as I kept thinking about Shawn. All of a sudden I hear the door open. I quickly wiped my tears. I walked downstairs and saw him. Why is he so charming? He looked at me and smiled. Even though I know it's fake, it still warmed my heart.
"Hi" he simply said while hanging his leather jacket up.
"Hi" I croaked out. I can't speak when I'm around him. He just makes me nervous. He walked up to me.
"Are you okay? You seem distant" he asked with concern? I took a step back and nodded. He looked confused.
"Shawn?" I managed to say
"Hmm" he hummed in response.
"Where were you?" I asked bravely.
"At a friends house" he replied with a sigh "speaking of my friend. I am going to go again. I just needed my phone" he said and grabbed his phone.
"Sh-Shawn..." I whispered. It was too late he was already gone.

The next day.

I woke up with a warm body next to me. I turned around seeing Shawn. When did he come back? I admired his beauty for a minute, when his phone buzzed. I slowly got up and checked his phone.

(1 minute ago) Camila: hey babe, why'd you leave? I'm sorry. Plz come back! I miss you ❤️😕
(1 minute ago) Camila: Shawn, I know I messed up. Please, I miss your kisses. I miss your warmth. I love you. ❤️

That broke my heart into million pieces. I put his phone down. I know what I need to do now...GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS HOUSE! But I have to wait. I went downstairs and went to the bathroom and locked the door. I slid down the door and started crying. I just want the old Shawn back. The one I fell in love with. The sweet, caring one. The one who loved me.

15 minutes later

I was still in the bathroom. I was thinking about the good memories we had, but as the days are passing, They are slowly disappearing. All of a sudden I hear a knock.
"Hailee, you there? Is there something wrong?" Shawn asked worriedly. I quickly got up and washed my face so he won't think I was crying.
"No, I am coming out" I said while wiping my face with a dry cloth. I opened the door revealing Shawn. I smiled and was about to walk past him. He quickly grabbed my arm, and pulled me towards him.
"Why are you ignoring me?" He asked with anger while tightening his grip. I winced In pain. The real question is, why are you ignoring me?
After hearing me wince he instantly let go and I saw regret in his eyes.
"I'm leaving again." He said, yeah but this time you won't find me Shawn. This is the last time I'll be seeing him. I leaned in and kissed him. Surprisingly he kissed back and pulled away. He then grabbed his phone and left.
"Goodbye, Shawn" I whispered to myself.

hours later

Yes, it takes me that long to pack. I grabbed my car keys and grabbed a picture frame from my room. I took a last glance out of this house while exiting the door. I sighed. I was trying so hard to hold in my tears. I called my mom who happens to be in California.
"Mom?" I asked through the phone
"Hailee? Sweetie, are you okay?" She asked worriedly.
"Take me home" I said with sadness
"You and Shawn ended things?! Why?! He's such a sweet guy! You love him Hailee"
"It's harder to hold on than to let go, mom. He doesn't love me anymore. We don't have that spark. We're burning away" I explained
"Oh sweetie...I thought he was the one. I'm sorry. Aren't you in Canada?" My mom asked
"Y-yeah"
"Shoot! Okay, just stay in  hotel for one night. I am going to arrive around sometime tomorrow" my mom said
"Okay, I love you" I said
"I love you too" she replied and hung up. I drove to a hotel. I signed my name. When I noticed shawn's checked in this hotel as well. I already payed, shit! I mentally groaned.
"Is there something wrong?" The lady asked.
"No, I'm sorry. My key?" I asked politely
"Oh yes, here you go. Have a nice day Mam." She said and smiled. I found the room I'm staying in and went in. I made myself some noodles and ate. Then went to bed.

The next morning

I grabbed my things and went to return the key card. I returned it and saw Shawn and I think her name Is Camila walking this way. I quickly grabbed a magazine and hid my face.
"Shawn, you sure you're not seeing anybody? You always leave..." Camila asked sadly
"Camila, I told you...you only have my heart, and no one else." Shawn replied and that broke me even more. I wanted to walk up to Shawn and just...UGH!

Shawns POV:
I feel like a dick. I'm cheating on Hailee, but I just don't feel it with her anymore. She just doesn't make me happy anymore, but I can't just break up with her. I try telling myself I love her, but my heart doesn't want to admit. I think she already knows somethings up, but the odd part was her kissing me this morning. We just kinda don't have time for each other that we don't even kiss, we just stopped, but today...it was just weird. When we use to Kiss we always had sparks and it felt right then it just didn't feel right, but after today...I kinda felt that spark. I don't even know if I love her or not. It's complicated. Right now, camila is the one for me. I exited the hotel.
"Camila, I will see you tomorrow" I said not wanting an answer from her.
"Why don't you just move in with me?" She asked with concern.
"Let's not move things too fast, okay babe?" I asked. She simply nodded. I pecked her lips and went home.

Minutes later

I opened the door, and hung my jacket up. I slowly walked in not wanting to wake up Hailee. Speaking of her...where is she? The house seems too quite and everything looks as I left it. I ran upstairs in our room seeing half the things are gone. I looked all around the house. No sign of Hailee. I was worried. Where did she go? Wait, did she leave? All of things are gone. Even our picture frame. I was furious! How could she leave without telling me?! What the fuck?! I was full of rage. I dialed her number. No answer. I dialed her number again. No answer. I was getting impatient. I called once more and surprisingly she answered.
"Hailee" I said as calm as I could.
"...Shawn" she replied back
"Where are you?" I asked
"..."
"Where are you?!" I asked again, but louder. I heard her gasp in shock. I didn't care.
"..." She still didn't say anything. She knows not to test my patience.
"WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?! WHY DID YOU FUCKING LEAVE?! DID YOU EVEN TRY TELLING ME?!" I yelled through the phone.
"Why should I tell you anything?...you don't tell me anything either" she replied softly.
"Dammit, Hailee. Come back home." I replied softy
"Bye Shawn" she replied and the line went dead.

1 month later.

It's already been a month, and Hailee hasn't showed up. I don't really care anymore. I never loved her anyways! I was texting Camilla when I heard a knock. I walked towards the door and opened it. I stared at her in confusion

Hailee's POV:

It's been a month, and i already miss his presence. I need him. I just want to see his charming face again. I need to see the smile the makes my heart melt. So here I am, knocking on his door.
"Hailee?" Shawn stared at me in confusion. I closed my eyes and sighed. I couldn't say anything. I tried saying something but nothing came out. He gestured me to come in. I slowly walked in. It smells like home. Everything's the same.
"What are you doing here?! I thought you fucking left?! Do you know how many fucking times I called?! Do you know how many fucking times- you know what? fuck it!" He snapped. He walked towards me and slammed me against a wall. I gasped in shock. That hurt!
"Shit Hailee! You make me so fucking pissed! Why are you here?" He asked again, but calmly this time
"I..I- I...love you" I stuttered. As soon as those words came out I regretted it instantly, because what he said hurt me so much.
"I don't love you anymore, but I just need you to stay with me. It doesn't feel right without you" he said with a frown. I held back my tears. He just knows how to hurt me, yet I can't stop loving him. He let go of me and walked out of the house. I sighed and slid down the wall. I heard noises, so I got back up. Shawn walks towards me and grabs my waist with his hands. I bumped against his buff chest. I stood there shocked. What is he doing? I felt chills all over me. He makes me so weak. He lifted me chin up and kissed me. I didn't know what to do. I stood there surprised and shocked. So many thoughts were running in my head. He deepened the kiss and I decided to kiss back. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He pulled away and started kissing my neck. I closed my eyes in pleasure. He stopped, and walked out of the house. Why do I let him do this to me?

Okay, I know it sucks. I ship that so hard! That are my OTP. I LOVE CAMILA AS WELL! I don't hate her and she's not an enemy in this story. Anyways, I decided to make Shawn aggressive. Sorry, Shawn is just too sweet, but not in this story. Lol. Hope you like it. Sorry for anything grammatical mistakes. Wrote this at night.