Amara Collins and Her Adventure with The Infamous Jack Sparrow - On Hold

Chapter 8: "She's Back!"

"James.." I said softly while he remained speechless. Who wouldn't anyway? I really looked like a pirate now. And after a few months of being gone, he may not be expecting to see me again. Maybe he was shocked why I returned. That's right, maybe he doesn't even want me here.

I looked at him longingly, I really missed him. His smiles, his voice, everything of him. There's a part of me that want to run in his arms, and hug him tight, but there's also a part of me, that doesn't want to. I'm not the same Amara anymore. Whether I like it or not.... I'm..... a....... pirate.. And I quite like it rather than being a Commodore.

I'm free, I can do whatever I wanted to. I 've got the freedom I've always wanted.. But I am guilty at the same time. I mean he-James-took me in when I was wasted. He trusted me even though we just met. He treated me as a friend, and he helped me get up from my downfall.. He was the reason I continued fighting. He was the reason I didn't give up on life. He's my everything.. But that was before I met Sparrow and his crew.

I also felt welcome there, I am not pressured to do anything. I am not expected to do everything right. They didn't look up to me like I'm sort of a God. And I like it that way, I do not want attention.. I just want a normal life, and I experienced that with Jack and his company..

"Amara..." he finally said.. It's been a long time since that voice spoke my name again.. And after of being away for a while, it felt different.. It felt foreign, like I don't know it anymore. I don't know his emotions beyond his words. Did he missed me? Was he worried I was gone for several months? Was that tone of relief that he finally saw me again?

Strange.... Did he really changed that much? I mean, it was just months when I was gone.. And I can't read him anymore?

Or was it me that changed?

"Long time no see.." really? We haven't saw each for months and that's how he greet me? "Long time no see?"

*sigh*

What right do I have to be upset anyway? I was the one who left him. I was the one who left without notice and broke his trust.. I... I was the one who chose to go with a pirate... So I guess I have to face the consequences of my actions. I should be thankful actually, that he didn't arrest me right here, right now. The way I dressed now, I'm sure he can already guess what I am now, he's not dumb anyway..

"Yeah.. It's been a long time.." I replied.. Looking directly in his eyes. Looking for a specific emotion. But unfortunately, I can't find any. The spark in his eyes aren't even there now. I can't find nor sense any hint of happiness, anger or anything.. I just can't see any emotion in his eyes.

"You've changed.." I said, can't hold my thoughts to myself anymore..

"So do you." he replied, too quickly.. Like he was expecting me to say it.

*sigh*

I shouldn't be affected.. I shouldn't be talking to him anyway.. We live in a very different worlds now..

I walked towards the door, standing face to face with him. 'He still looks the same.. Handsome as ever..'

"Move aside James.." I said coldly.

"And what? Let you escape?" he scoffed.

"As if I'll do that.." he added.

"Then I've got no choice but to move you aside then.." I stated dangerously. Though I don't really mean it, I just can't stand his presence anymore. It's suffocating. And besides another minute alone with him and I might just change my mind about all of this.