Give Me Love

13

Victoria

We went home because I don't want him to spend another money for us. It's only noon.

He immediately went to the kitchen as I settle what we bought today in the living room.

I check on Veronica before I entered the kitchen. "Where's Veronica?" he ask as he chops a piece of meat. "At the living room. Checking on the dress you just bought." I watch him slices the meat. "We bought." he corrects me. It made me giggle. He looks at me as I giggle.

"What happen at the botique?" I ask because I heard his phrase and it's echoing inside of my head. "The sales clerk is flirting with me so I told her I already have a wife," he poured the oil on the frying pan, "Don't worry, it won't happen again." he says and my heart starts to sink. Shit! What do you mean by this? I just give him my smile before going back to the living room.

I watch my daughter checking on her new dress. She's seems so happy. I tried to smile whenever she tried to impress me with her new dress but something is bothering me. I don't understand. Arthur's statement made me felt what pain is. I shouldn't be affected by those words. It doesn't mean to me. We're not even friends but my heart is sinking.

"It won't happen again." it's killing me inside.

I got up and went outside to breathe some air. I felt suffocating inside and I hate it. I tilt my head above. I breathe the air deeply. But his words is still running in mind. Why did I ever ask? Maybe this is the start of what made me so afraid of. I still don't understand why I felt so affected by his words.

"Victoria?" I turn around and saw him standing by the door, "The lunch is ready." then he closes the door. It made me frown.

Veronica is already seated beside him. I watch every move he makes. The way he take cares of my daughter.

I eat there, silently. I didn't expect that kind of answer. I'm just expecting an explanation, not those words. It's killing me inside. I don't understand. "Are you okay?" I gasp as he holds my hand. I stared at it for a little while then took it away from him, "Yeah." I lost my appetite. Why am I so affected? I shouldn't feel this way, knowing that his nothing for me.

I got up and leave the table with my plate. "Hey," Arthur followed me. "Something's bothering you." he stares at me. I know, I could feel the heat of his stare. "It's nothing. I'm just thinking how to pay you." I say. He smile, "You doesn't have to pay. I offered this."

He went back to the dining room and continue with his duty. Why am I acting like this? Wasn't I expecting his answer or there's really something inside? I barely knew him. I never get to know who really is. I only know who he is outside not really who he is inside.

Minutes later, he's bringing the plates already. I step aside for him to place the plates on the sink. I watch every move he makes. I stare him for seconds, "Hey," he smiles. Shit! He just caught me staring at him. "If something's bothering you, tell me. Okay?" he says. He on the faucet and starts to wash the dishes, "Let me do that," I grab the plate from his hand but my hand touches his hand. "I'll do the dishes, Arthur. It's too much." I smile and starts to wash it.

Why am I expecting him to know me as his wife? We're not even friends. We barely know each other. I doesn't who he is. Where he lives, when is his birthday. His family background. Besides of knowing that his dad is the former CEO of the P&S Homes. Besides that he has a twin and a step-sister. I don't know his parents yet. I wander, what might his parent's reaction when they found about this? I should stop myself for falling before it's too late for me. I know in the end, he won't feel the same. I'm not his type. I know that.

I'm humming my favorite song, My Heart Will Go On while washing the dishes. I should stop thinking about him already. He's nothing. Really.

I went back and his already carrying Veronica, "She falls asleep." he says as he carry my daughter. I picked up all the dresses, the toys, anything she scattered in the living room.

I followed them in Veronica's room. "She's now settled," he say as he closes the door, "Victoria, are you really alright?" I nodded. I doesn't want him to know how I feel about his words earlier. "Alright then, if you have something just open my door, okay?" he smiles and patted mg shoulder. I watch him walk away from where I stand.