The Stud Life

Im not your average 19 year old, all my life i couldnt wait till i was old enough to be an adult. Here I am, and it blows. I work for my step father at a upholstery shop on Harry street. He's an asshole to me, but im also a asshole so i guess karma liked me a little bit.

You see, Im a lesbian, have been since i could even remember. I dress in baggy pants, snapbacks, and vans. This is what this generation calls a "Stud" lesbian. Let me tell you though, there are more and more studs everywhere these days, some people judge, and some people dont, those christians that think if they dont read the bible at least twice a day thier going to hell kind of people judge, other than that noone really cares nowadays.

My point is, that all threw my highschool years i was the Stud everyone wanted. I had dirty blonde spikey hair, gazing green eyes, and a all around gorgeous smile. I dressed to impress, I would wear what what is style always. Polos, hollister, jordans, anything to keep me looking good. I drove the nicest car at West High. 2000 silver chevy tahoe sitting on 22 inch rims with a crome grill. That really made people like me. All the straight girls though, they would want to be with me, simply because i look like a really hot guy, so they would turn bi for a while. At first i was ok with it i mean hey, bitches love the stud, but then i started thinking.. "is there any girl out there who is going to love me for me" thats been on my mind ever since.

You see, ive always liked long realtionships, i like to cuddle watch movies etc, but every long realtionship i had with a girl, they were straight.. so i turned them gay you could say. eventually all of them ended up cheating on me. ALL of them. So now its like, WHERE DA REAL LESBIANS AT!? no.. but really its so hard to find someone faithful in the year 2013. everyone is pregnent, a hoe, or just all around loves dick and pussy. I dont have a problem with bisexual people but if your someone and you want to cheat go cheat with the same gender at least. damn. hoes these days, but back to my story, i was the shit in highschool, i had all the friends, even got best dressed in the yearbook for girls, bet alot of them were pissed because i didnt even wear girl clothes. haa oh well. The point is now, my life has gone to shit. i currently live in a 2 bedroom apt with my girlfriend and her son, shes cheated on me before but i really fell in love with this girl so im trying to make it work, but we wont talk about that. i no longer have the nicest car, i drive a granny car, i work my ass off 6 days a week to make a 400 dollar check, living large right? No. I have no friends any longer i went from having so many friends i couldnt rember there names now i have 0. Its funny, how you want to be grown and shit and when you get grown its a damn slap in the face for most with a big ass gun shooting reality at you. thats some of my life, if you would like to hear more, let me know thanks for reading.