I thought about this for weeks.....i'm still thinking about it. I think this little world I live in...has everything anyone would like and has everything everyone would....hate. I'll have tried to find the meaning of life....let's just say I'm still looking. I have watched Danisnotonfire, iisuperwomanii...but I thought about how life kicks them in the butt so hard that they can't get back up.... It makes me sad to see them like that.....they are like my favorite YouTubers....don't worry I'm not a fangirl of Danisnotonfire. I keep having one thought and it's making a YouTube channel so I could have some really good friends like Dan,superwoman....you must be wondering why I haven't made one all ready.....well I'm only 13 years old...yup a little bitch kid that wants a YouTube channel....but I have a good reason why I don't have one and why I want one. Why I don't have a YouTube channel well I want to show my face on it but my mom said "No" about me showing my face on YouTube. Why I want a YouTube channel...because I don't have many friends and I need something to look forward....what I'm trying to say so I need a meaning to life. I would love to meet people who look up to me.....I need a meaning to this big world I live in....I want to go down in history for be here for being a live....I don't want to be forgotten! One of the reasons I want to be a YouTuber...one of the reasons I want to be worth something to this world we live in! I really want to make people happy....but I can't no matter what I do or say I will never be able to do what I really want to do.... Because I'm to young. Why do I need to be 18 years old just to be.... Something in this world. I do have a YouTube channel but not a lot of people are into dolls...so I won't be able to have people that think i'm something in this world. I don't really like people because I'm shy so I thought maybe this would be my friends. Well I just want to make people happy that's really all I want to do. o̶̶̷̤ .̫ o̴̶̷̤
