The Bad Boys Secret [Cameron Dallas fanfic]

Chapter 36 - Falling for Matt or just attention?

I walk along the streets with Matt, Joe, Taylor and Aaron. We walk the busy streets making sure we stick together, and if I want to go into a shop, Matt demands to the guys that they must follow me, and do what I want because I am doing what they want.

The thing I love about Matt is that, he doesn't mind if I want to go shopping, he won't force me into doing something I don't want, and he lets me hang around with his friends. I love the fact that he lets me hang around with his friends because most guys don't, and if they do, they act different, but Matt just acts funnier.

*Ping ping* goes my phone. I roll my eyes because I haven't even touched my phone today, which is a long time since I have because since not being with Cam, I have nothing to do but go on my phone. I read my text and it is from Kylie,

"Mom is home in five! What shall I tell her? You're grounded remember? I just got in on time... You're boned..."  I laugh and roll my eyes, and send pack a text quickly,

"Just tell her I'm ill and am sleeping, she wouldn't try and disturb me. Don't let her into my room though, not even to put laundry away! Promise? x"

"Yeah okay... Promised xx"

I lock my phone and put it in my pocket, keeping it out of my sight, so it doesn't disturb me or interrupt me. Matt puts his arm around me and says let's go for some food, and he suggests a burger place. The thing is I don't like beef. I see burgers and they look amazing and I wish I could eat them but I absolutely hate the taste of them! I don't mind chicken burgers but not beef! So as we all sit down, the boys know the name of the burger they want, which makes me think that they come here often.

The waitress comes over and says,
"Hello boys, your usuals?" Well I guess my wonder has been proved a fact, because even the waitress knows what they want to eat.
"Yeah thanks Mary! We got Alana with us today. Alana this is Mary, and Mary this is Alana," Hayes says smiling. I smile back and she gives me a cheek kiss. You know the kiss that adults do, like their cheeks touch and they make the kiss sound but there lips don't actually touch each other? - She gave me one of them.

We all sit chatting whilst our food gets prepared I suppose. Hayes, Nash, Taylor, Matt and I all together. I just can't get over Matt letting me come out in public with him, let alone with his friends! If a guy let's you meet his friends then that means your important because he's showing you off and letting his guy friends judge you, so I guess I'm trying hard to make a good impression.

"But I don't want to sound rude but mate, you are bang!" Taylor says to me laughing but he's being serious. I feel uncomfortable because straight after he says that, I automatically think of Cameron; it's something he would say because it's dirty. I know I shouldn't be thinking about him but, how can I not think about him? How do people expect me to get him out my mind, when I can't even get his cologne out my bedsheets?

I stand up awkwardly and excuse myself from the table and I go outside to take in the fresh air. I take a deep breath as I lean back against the wall, a light up a cigarette. I inhale the smoke and close my eyes and blow it out so slowly, so I have control over it (the only thing I seem to actually have control over). I feel my body already start to feel more calm, as I exhale him, and inhale a better toxic in me then him, because frankly, he's the worst toxic poison anybody could get. Matt comes outside and smiles reassuringly when he sees me smoking.
"I thought you did a runner then but you've come for a ciggy. Don't blame you. May I?" He says looking at my lighter whilst he holds a cigarette in between his big pouted lips. I nod my head and he smiles, lighting it up and doing the exact same as me, realising his stress.
"I know you left because of Taylor, he made you feel awkward didn't he?" He says facing me, blowing his smoke slightly in my face. I breathe in his smoky scent and smile as I smell his cologne mixed in with this smoke smell. I nod my head slightly and still feel awkward as if Taylor was still here, but he's probably watching us through the window to be honest, and so are all the boys no doubt.
"I know it wasn't the best way to say it, but I get what he is trying to say. Alana, you don't realise it but you're honesty gorgeous, and any guy would be lucky to have you. You got curves, your face is beautiful, and your personality, well it's amazing. Ah what am I saying right? I sound cheesy but hey, at least I'm saying the truth right?" He draws the cigarette from his lips and this time blows out the awkwardness he feels, and inhale the happiness. Matt isn't like Cameron. Matt is caring, loving, kind, honest, and generally, a decent guy who doesn't just use people. He isn't one to judge, which makes him easy to talk to, and also makes him so trustworthy. He's such a sweet guy, and I really do like hanging around with him. I think I like him a little more than a friend, but I'm not a hundred percent sure yet...

"Come on Al, let's put on our brave faces, put up with them idiots and then go back to mine and cuddle up to watch a movie. Don't worry, just cuddle, nothing else, I promise. For anything else, I give you the permission to hit me in the balls. Deal?" He says putting out his cigarette and holding his hand out to me.
"But will your provide snacks like popcorn? A movie isn't the same without popcorn," I say teasingly but also serious. He winks as he grabs my hand,
"Of course, who'd you take me for?" See, this is what I like....