I'm not sure what time it is, I know that there's no light out, but I can't bring myself to look at the time. Honestly I can't bring myself to do anything at all, I'm absolutely paralyzed with fear right now. I don't know what triggered it this time, I guess I'll just have to wait and find out when this horrifying panic attack is over. I'm so sick and tired of these attacks, they are becoming apart of me and that is not something that I want to become common in my life. What more can I sacrifice to get these to go away, I've already switched to homeschool, that's helped, but it still isn't enough. Something inside me just won't let go, some tiny sliver of fear is still hanging on, and it's fighting for its life. I have to beat it, I have to let go of it or else my life will just be endless hours in a white room, I've got to shake this. "Just think about Isabel, the thought of her will calm you down" I told myself as I struggled to break free from the grasp of the attack. There, all better. I'm finally done with that attack, now to what caused it. "Ah, this did it." I say as I look down at my computer. "I have 1 day before I go to Grayson Manor and I don't have my short story done yet." I should finish this stupid clown story already and just hope for the best, but I know that that won't be even close to enough to win this contest. You know what, screw it, let's just finish this already. I've gotta get some sleep for the long day ahead of me tomorrow. Hopefully, this effort won't be for nothing.
