Alam mo ba??
Namimiss na kita.
Sabi mo sakin noon,
Walang iwanan.
Pero bakit ganun?
You left me without saying a word.
I still kept on saying to myself,
that all of this things..
Were just some piece of shit.
That all of things were just one of my nightmares.
I laughed. Bitterly.
I stopped going to school.
Because of you.
Naalala ko pa noon, when we had our first meeting...
"Tumingin ka nga sa daanan mo!" yan yung unamong sinabi sakin.
I really hated you before.
But unfortunately,,
"Sorry pala. Badtrip kasi ako nun" and then you smiled.
Di ko aakalaing crush na pala kita.
Lumipas ang mga buwan, umamin ka sakin.
Sabi mo, mahal mo ako.
Nagpakipot ako, kasi kinikilig ako.
Sinabi ko sayo, "Sorry. The feeling is not mutual"
At lumakad ako papuntang restroom.
At doon nilabas lahat ngemotions ko.
Excitement.
Bliss.
Kilig.
Binalikan kita pero wala ka na dun.
Napasinghap ako.
Iniwan mo na pala ako.
Tears started to fall on my cheeks.
But then, I was surprised.
Someone hugged me from the back.
And I was shocked. Again.
It was you.
Humarap ako sayo at hinalikan ka sa cheeks.
"Ayoko ng ligaw-ligaw. Tayo na." Then I hugged you.
"Mahal kita" hinigpitan ko pa ang pagyakap sayo at sinabi ko ring, "Mahal rin kita."
Years had passed.
We were still in a relationship.
Di naman matatakasan ang mga away, pero di natin pinalalampas ang isang oras na di nagkakabati.
Masaya ako kasama ka. At alam kong masaya ka rin sa piling ko.
I am confident.
Sa 8 years ba naman nating magkasama.
Ngunit, something happend
Sabimo sakin,may importante kang sasabihin
Kinabahan ako.
My mind was filled with negative thoughts.
Then I told you, what is it.
At pagsabi mo..
Tumulo na ang mga luha ko.
Mas masakit pa pala kesa sa iniexpect ko.
May sakit ka...
Leukemia..
Pero sinabi mo sakin...
"Okay lang yan mahal. Kaya ko naman ito eh"
I smiled at you fakely.
.......
My mind was placed from my thought when someone knocks my door.
Si mama. Looking worriedly at me.
She asked me if I were going.
I looked away.
It still hurts.
I answered her without looking.
"No."
It's been 2 years since he left me.
And my heart was still drowning
I miss him.
Really really miss him.
Patay na siya.
Patay na ang taong mahal ko.
It's his 2nd death anniversary.
And they are visiting him.
Ayoko siyang bisitahin.
Di ko pa kaya.
Di ko pa kayang makita ang pangalan niya na andun sa lapida niya.
He left me.
He left me without saying his farewell.
Tita called me noon,
He needs me raw.
Kaya, sinugod ko ang ospital.
Pero. Wala na.
I saw him. With a cloth beneath him.
Pumasok ako sa room.
Pero pinigilan ako ng mga doctor
But I was agressive.
Pumasok ako. At tumulo na ang kanina ko pang pinipigilan na mga luha.
My rears were unstoppable.
I pulled out the white cloth.
And their.
I saw him.
My love.
The half of my life.
Lying at the hospital bed...
Dead.
I shooked my head
"No. Stand up their Gab! Stop pranking on me!!!" but Gab was still speechless.
"Grabiel!!! Sabi mo sa akin. Walang iwanan? Ba't mo ako iniwan?!"
Di siya umimik.
I kissed his lips.
Hoping he'll respond.
But no.
He didn't.
Dahil dun, napasigaw ako sa frustration
"Gab!!!!" and my tears were unlimited on falling down.
Inilayo ako ng mga nurses.
And afer it.
I blocked out...
And right now.
Here I am.
In my present life.
I sat down at the edge of my bed.
And I found out something.
Our picture...
Kinuha ko ito.
Pinagmasdan..
Napaiak na naman ako.
"Happy 10th Anniversary my love."
