Nevermore (rewriting)

Nevermore Chapter 1

A/N: A big thank you to ShiraKwartin for the cover! Give her a shout out if you need a cover guys :) Also, listen to the song I posted and of course, VOTE people! hehe love ya <3

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I held on to my sister Natalie and cried my heart out. Who would have known I would ever feel so miserable in my life, so broken. Who whould have known anyone could be capable of such grief, it was as if a black hole had consumed my soul and all that had been left was a sad, empty shell. It was a though a part of me had been torn, and nothing would ever replace it.

It was my turn to throw the flower into his grave, that moment when I said something that would change my life completely. I 'd gotten him a white one, a rose. So many memories flashed before my eyes as the song "Nuvole Bianche", or as I knew it, "Alice" filled the air.

So many memories, gone. I stared at his picture until it became blurry because of the tears in my eyes. They flowed down non-stop, I didn't even blink, I just stared at him and said:

 "Nevermore... nevermore shall I hold you, never more shall I kiss you, nevermore I shall even see you. I wish you'd come back, but you never will... will you?"

I added the last two words hopefully. If there was a god out there I wanted him to hear me, I wanted Jared back so bad I would've done anything in my power to persuade God, anything. 

If only he could hear me, I thought.

 My breath caught. The tears kept flowing down my face. An endless waterfall of misery.

 Jared... My Jared... was dead, and there was nothing I could do to change it.

 I dropped the flower and time seemed to slow down. I saw it fall slowly, It's petals moving in the wind, seemingly dancing to the soft melody of the piano...

Then the edges of my vision started blurring until all I saw was complete darkness.

I started seeing an image after a whille of staring at the abscence of color, it was blurry at first, and then very sharp, too sharp in fact. It was as if I could see better than I could before I got there. I was at the beach again, it was the day we made love for the first time, I never expected him to die three weeks later, but at least I could enjoy this one dream.

"I'm not going in Jared! The water's too cold!" I told him as I stood 

"Aww come on love, I'm here to provide warmth." He smirked and winked at me.

I laughed. "Shut up Jay you're not going to make me."

"All right if you won't come willingly you'll have to come..." He paused for dramatic effect, "UNwillingly!" and then he raced out of the water and picked me up bridal style.

My shrieks of laughter filled the air. "Stop! Emmett! Let me go!" but it was too late, he threw me into the water and proceeded to laugh at me.

I glared at him, "You're gonna pay for this, you know?" I said, and then he held me close, his muscular arms wrapping around my slim waist.

"Come on Alice, it isn't so bad. It's lukewarm once you get used to it." He pressed his forehead to mine. "We couldn't just come to the beach and not try the water. You know how much I love to swim. Especially with you, love." His bright blue eyes bored into mine.

"Oh, no you're not trying that with me mister. Your boyish charms don't work on me when I'm mad at you... But..." I cupped his beautiful face in my hands and pulled him close as if to kiss him, then I pushed him underwater and held him there. "Nothing! I told you you'd pay!"