Dear Journal

September 6,2012

Entry One: Secrets

His lips met mines as he kissed me hungrily. His smooth tongue slid across my bottom lip as he asked for entrance and I instantly gave in. He cupped my but in his palms while I wrapped my legs around his solid, built frame. He kissed my neck tenderly as quiet moans teared through my mouth while his tongue made its self comfortable. After 20 minutes of mind blowing passion he zipped up his pants, fixed his shirt and left the janitors closet while shame crept through me.

"Clare I need to talk to you" I asked grabbing my best friends hand.

"Whats wrong Jamie? Why weren't you at Mr.Livingston's first period?" She asked with curiosity.

"Thats what I wanted to talk to you about Clare" I mumbled.

"Did your turtle die?"

"No Clare I have no turtle. I just um...I stammered.

"Spill it out Jamie" she groaned.

"I just had sex with Matthew" I whispered while looking at the ground.

"YOU WHAT, YOU HAD SEX WITH THE MA- before she continued I placed my hand over her mouth.

"Shhh If you don't keep quiet I wont tell you the whole story" I whispered in her ear.

"Fine" she replied which came out muffled.

"Clare we've been keeping this secret for- the bell interrupted meaning it was the start of second period.

"I'll tell you at lunch Claire".

"Okay" she responded and we parted out separate ways.

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Today was the last of my summer days in camp Springs and so far my day is going awful. I wanted to crawl in my soft olive bed and dream about Matthew Storm but Clare insisted I come. Going on and on about this 'being the perfect day to lose my virginity, and I wasn't one to agree on her about that but apparently faith did.

Clare being as gorgeous as she is already had a bump grinned partner while I couldn't even attract a fly. Carefully making my way down the bleachers I went to go get some punch. I took a sip of the crimson punch but tasted a hint of liquor. Someone spiked this and I was glad, this could be my escape.

"Why aren't you bumping and grinding Jamie?" A husky voice asked and I automatically knew the owner of that voice it was Matthew, and he knows my name? Wait stop gawking at him like a fish and say something.

"Uh...I have no one to bump and grind with" I stated while concentrating on the the spiked punch in my cup.

"Follow me" He whispered in a seductive tone while grabbing my hand and leading me out of the gymnasium.

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Before I continue Journal lets go to know your owner shall we. I'm Jamie Green daughter my divorced mom Martha Green and my mystery dad Mark Stephan. My dad left when my mom was into 8 months of pregnancy, claiming that the sperm that produced me weren't his.

I'm 5'4, 15, Brown eyes and Blond hair that flows past my shoulders. I'm nothing special just your average teenage girl. I go to Thunder Dome High where Im invisible to everyone other than my best friend Clare and apparently mouth watering Matthew . Clare is absolutely gorgeous with her blue shimmering eyes and brown wavy hair and slim frame, she's every guys dream but she choses to be by side which I'm grateful for.

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We arrived inside his car.

"Matthew what are we doing here?" I asked taking in my surroundings.

"I...wanted....to......show....you something..." He said in between the kisses he trailed up my neck.

"Matthew are you drunk?" I asked with disbelief. Am I dreaming?

"Maybe..." He chuckled. He sucked on my neck sending tingles down my spine.

"You...know something Jamie..." He slurred.

"Mhmm"I mumbled while I suppressed a moan.

"I really like you Jamie."

Those words made me cave in. Those were the words that knocked the walls that were built, the words that gave Matthew permission to take away my sacred grounds.....

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{At Lunch}

Clare and I placed our trays down on the table and sat. I munched my Doritos silently while Clare starred at me impatiently.

"What" I asked?

"While I'm young Jamie and not a wrinkled old grandma with bags under my eyes for Christ sakes".

"Well it was the last day of summer camp and Matthew approached me and told me to follow him and we went to his car and he said he liked me so you know we had sex". Her eyes grew big and her mouth formed an "O" shape.

"Don't you dare". I yelled.

"Matthew and Jamie humping in the tree. H-U-M-P-I-N-G..." The cafeteria grew quiet. I turned to see everyone gawking at us even the staff.

"Mat you fucked J Rat?" One of the members on the football team yelled. All heads turned his way.

"No I would never fuck someone that ugly".

The cafeteria filled with laughter. I can't take this I stormed out of the cafeteria hearing my best friend Clare shoting my name. I ran to the nearest restroom, entered a stall. Wrapping my arms around my knees, I cried my heart out.

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