His smiles, were her death

One Shot - His smiles, were her death

I felt an arm grab me as I was walking.
All these thoughts rushed through my head. But one was sticking out: fear. Though then, to my surprise I'm turned around and I see the person's face. I recognize him, his complexion. Then I remember where I had seen him before, he's the guy who's always smiling at me at school. And I remember when we accidentally bumped into each other last week, and I just kept on saying sorry.

"Hey" I say, desperately trying to remember his name.

He's blushing but he's trying to hide it. I blink once and when I reopen my eyes; I see his lips coming towards mine. And our lips touch, and they stay like that for a while.

"Hey" he answers. As he backs away I grab onto him. Because I don't want him to run away after this.

So I tell him, "I'm already taken"
Then he says "If you weren't would you.."
And I kiss him. Our lips meeting passionately. "Does that answer your question?"
He just smirks, my eyes meeting his. They sparkle in the night, neither one of us is breaking the focus.

He whispers "I love you."
I bring my head to his chest. Leaving it to rest there. He moves his hands to my back, as do mine. There we stood, the night shining with stars as we embrace each other. He kisses my head, as I hold him tighter. The warmth of his body keeps me from freezing.

"I wish we could stay like this forever" he whispers.

"Who says we can't?" I answer as I grab his hand, and we begin to walk back.
We walk back hand in hand, shortly letting go before we get to back to the crowd of people. But it breaks my heart, into a thousand little pieces; having to act like if nothing had happened.

He says "We can still be friends. Right?"

"Of course" I answer, turning so I can see his face, I can see the crisp cold air around him.
He turns to look at me smiling, I smile back, I go to hug him but I feel something cold inside of me. I smell blood. Blood. I look down and I see a knife, blood dripping all over his hands.
I look back to his face; he's sporting a devious smile. I feel betrayed, how could I allow myself to trust someone who just smiles at me all the time, someone I know nothing about. I should've thought of the consequences. But I just want to feel his lips against mine one more time. I just want to run my hands through his hair, feel his arms wrapped around me. But it'll never happen again, it's all gone.

"I'm sorry, darling" he says, as if he could read my mind. The words come out of his mouth, like the sun rising in the morning, so terribly bright yet so dark at the same time. He smiles at me, for the last time. The last time I'll ever see him again.

My eyes begin to water. "Don't cry" I think to myself, but a single tear rolls down my cheek. I catch it with my tongue. Tasting its saltiness as it falls down my throat.

As I fall to the ground, I look up at the sky. The stars shining, brighter than ever. As if they're welcoming me. I can still see him running about. But it's all in my mind. None of this was ever real. I was silly to think so. This was just all lies, mixed together to make the truth that I wanted. I leave myself to die; I don't call out for help or try to get people to notice. It's probably better this way anyways. Let my pain be washed away from others.

Let my soul fly away. Maybe, finally I'll be at peace with myself. Forget everything that I ever did, and everything that ever happened.

"Ha" I think. Even in my darkest times, I can make myself laugh. Thinking such foolish thoughts, I won't forget anything. I'm going to remember everything that ever happened to me, whether good or bad I don't care anymore. My time has come, and I'll thank everyone that ever cherished it with me. Everyone that made everyday worth living, everyone who kept me going, who kept me strong.