Gasoline // K&K.

Suffering

Kendall's p.o.v

8 days since dad died.

8 days since Kylie so selfishly chose Cody over her family.

8 days since I have eaten a full meal, or slept for longer then four hours, or showered in under 45 minutes.

8 days since my world fell apart and I don't quite know how to tell people that I am breaking.

"Kendall?" Khloe said, standing at more door in a floor length black dress.

She snapped me out of my hiatus from the world.

"What?" I ask, thinking she said something else.

"Babe, we have to go." She says so softly. How does anyone prepare to burry their father? Khloe has done it. But she told me that its a different experience for everyone.

"You know you can go be with lamar right?" I tell her. Knowing that she is hurting inside.

"He will be okay for a couple of hours, his kids are with him today." She says with a sigh.

I pick myself off of my bed, and look in the mirror. I look like shit, but that is to be expected.

~ Half an hour later, still in Kendalls pov. ~

"Kendall, sweety, you're next." Kim says through her tears, I dont know why, but MJ my grandma on moms side just gave dad a eulogy. I was next, i struggled up the stairs, this funeral was not interment. It was being broadcast on the television. my heart has never felt this heavy before. So I scrunched up the price of paper I had prepared and started reading the words from my heart.

"The first thing I did when Dad died was post a picture on instagram, at that moment millions of people mourned the loss of MY Dad. It was at that moment I realised I wasnt even mourning. I thought it wasnt real. I know people say that all the time. But it honestly does not feel real. I posted a picture. How heartless is that? Dad was everything, he made the sun shine brighter and the world a better place." The podium was awash wish my tears. I don't want to talk to the audience anymore. I wanna talk to Dad.

"I got in Daddy, I am a victoria secret angel now. Its beeb my dream since I was 8 and I did it. Ive made it. I miss you so much. I dont know what to do with myself. Kylie and I blammed mom for this. But it isnt her fault. Dad I love you so much. I hope you're having fun in heaven and you're watching over me. Because I need the protection." And I walked off the stage and went and sat back down, kim and Kanye held both of my hands.

"We are so proud of you Kendall. he is looking down on you babe. I promise." These sweet words I rarely hear come out of Kanye's mouth, but im so greatful. Just as I put my head on Kanyes shoulder Kylie walks in, late, with cody's hand in hers.

A//n

HELLO GUYS I AM BACK I AM SO SO SO SO SO SORRY!!!!!
I am sorry for not updating woah. And im sorry for the poor quality of the chapters before this one. My god.
But im back. Thank you for over 1.19k reads WHAT THE FUCKKKK. THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!
Alot has happened for my second family over the past year woah. What do yiu think of kylies lips, yum.
Oh and her and tyga. I fucking ship them so hardcore. Yum as well.
And Caitlin?!?!? Wooooooow, I support her and her transition 110% but I DO NOT support the way she is going about it. She is hurting the girls and Kris so much like it is not fair. She has painted kris as an unsupportive monster & she isnt.
And did yall see Kenny walk in the VS show?!?!? YUM AGAIN WHAT OMFG SHE IS AMAZING HER LEGS FOR DAYS MAKE ME WANNA KMS BUT OMGYNTKDHWKDH yum. And Khloe and lamar. I cried thousands of rivers whilst he was in his coma. Poor baby. And poor koko. Honestly I love them so so so much and I lowkey want her to break up with james and get back with lamar bc otp. Ugh I cri.

Anyways thanx for reading lmaooo.
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Love yall so freaking muchhhh.

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Songs for chapter.

Save me → Nicki minaj.

See you again → Wiz kalifa & charlie Puth.

Make it to me → Samuel Smith.