Journey to Nowhere

Pretending and Reasoning

Pretending. It's something we do our entire life. Kids pretend to be superheroes, adults pretend to have their lives all sorted out.

Pretending can be fun. It provides you with this thin filter that protects you from an otherwise dull, uneventful life.

That being said, some people pretend out of necessity, for means of survival. That's totally understandable. Others pretend for personal gain or benefit, some do so just because they love pretending.
For the longest time I was pretending without realizing that I was. I assumed I knew myself and where I came from to a tee. I had pretended from a young age that everything I knew and was told was indeed, without a doubt, true.
However, as a growing aura of maturity and adulthood made their way into my life, my unbeknownst pretending ceased.
No longer having to pretend was a breath of fresh air, almost too fresh though.

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I knew I was adopted. My parents had told me early in life.

There was an overwhelming sense of abandonment that stayed with me for a long time. Ten years to be exact. However, with each passing year, I realized how loved I was. My parents told me time and time again that I wasn't abandoned and eventually I agreed with them. It took time but I began focusing on what I had versus what I didn't.

Everything happens for a reason. You meet people, turn to new hobbies, change your appearance... all for a reason. Though that reason isn't always apparent.

I chose to find to take a new path right before my eighteenth birthday. The reasoning behind it? To find where I came from.

Well, that was the reason I told myself.

Yet, as each layer of my past was peeled back my original reasoning became false. I wasn't try to find where I came from. I was trying to do something much more than that. It just took me going on a summer long journey to determine what I was actually trying to do.

This is my reasoning behind my journey. A rather long reasoning, granted, but a reasoning nonetheless.

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Lynea has lived the majority of her life without a care in the world. She has loving parents, a great job, and just graduated high school. Though adopted, Lynea has never questioned her past. However, when she uncovers a letter from her birth mother addressed to her unbeknownst sister, Lynea can't help but set out to find the truth about where she came from.

Alongside her neighbor, Stephen, the two embark on a journey to learn more about Lynea's real family and the haunting reasons that separated them in the first place. As secrets come out and tragedy strikes at any given moment, Lynea must find not only a way to reconnect with her family but reconnect with herself.

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A small opening monologue from the main character, Lynea (lyn-knee-ah).

I hope you enjoy going a journey with Lynea and thanks for reading.