Masyado akong natutuwa sa mga kalokohang nagagawa ng tropa hanggang sa nakita ko siya na nakatingin mula sa malayo.
There is something in her eyes that makes me realize how much I love her. At sa mga oras na ito there is something in her eyes that lights up the guilt in me. Yes, there is.
Alam kong naiinis siya sa akin kasi hindi ko sinunod ang gusto niya. Pero hindi ko mapigilan kasi hindi lang naman sa kanya umiiikot ang mundo ko. Pero mahal ko siya. Mahal na mahal ko siya kasi iba siya. Ibang-iba siya.
Habang naglalaho siya sa paningin ko naiisip ko kung gaano ako ka-swerte sa kanya. Kung gaano ako kasaya kapag kasama ko siya. Nawawala sa isip ko ang problema ko kasi ang alam ko lang masaya ako kasi kasama ko siya. Kasabay nun, kampante ako na mahal niya ako. Na kahit pa kitang-kita ko ang inis niya, damang-dama ko pa rin ang pagmamahal niya. Her love for me is always visible in her eyes. And I feel safe. Because the one I love loves me more.
Nang gabing yun pinuntahan ko siya sa bahay nila. Hindi na naman kasi bago sa amin ang ganitong issue. Sanayan lang eh. Alam ko na kasi kung paano huhulihin ang kiliti niya, alam ko rin na hindi niya ako matitiis. Alam na alam ko.
"Malapit na ang finals.. alam mo yun, alam ng lahat yun"
Mga katagang una kong narinig sa kanya matapos niyang maupo sa tabi ko.
"Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit napakahirap para sayo na intindihin.. na yung pagpigil ko sayo, hindi para sa akin yun. It wouldn't bother me if I just didn't care but I just can't help but do."
"Alam ko naman eh.. kaya lang kasi diba.. sinabi ko naman di ba.. once in a blue moon lang umuuwi si Klent.. kaya nagkita-kita agad kami kasi aalis agad yun.. Light, sorry na.. mag-aaral ako ngayon, nanghiram na ako ng notes . Trust me. Pangako ko nga di ba, sabay tayong ga-graduate, promise yan, kahit anong mangyari kakayanin yan."
Alam ko naman kasing yun lang ang maggpapakalma sa kanya.. ang malamang pinanghahawakan ko ang pangako namin sa isa't-isa na sabay kaming magtatapos.
"I do trust you Light.. pero pwede bang wag mong dalasan ang mga isyung ganito. Nakakawala kasi ng gana."
Hindi ko alam pero biglang nakaramdam ako ng fear sa sinabi niya. Fear that she might mean what she just said.
"Light naman, wag ka namang ganyan.. nagso-sorry na nga oh"
I just hugged her tight, so tight like it will be the last one. I always do. Because I believe that life is unpredictable. So, kung sakali man na huling araw ko na 'to, masaya akong aakyat ng langit kasi nayakap ko ng husto ang babaeng mahal ko.
Kumalma siya at naramdaman ko ang yakap niya pabalik. It's one of the best things in life. The way she hugs me. I could feel the touch of a princess whose at ease in the arms of her prince.
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Aster and I have spent almost 7 years loving and caring for each other. This girl, who I never thought would be mine, has got the longest patience for me. She used to be my friends' special someone. Yes, she used to. Way back when everything was simple in her eyes and it was a chaos in mine. I was in love with my friends' girlfriend. I loved her first before he met her and I didn't have the courage. I used to watch her from afar while she is hanging with her friends, we never had any common friends then, which is why it had been hard for me to make a move. I was one of the silly ones that time. I spent a lot of time being stuck in front of the computer playing games instead of attending class. I even took it to the point where I pretended to join the educational tour when all I really did is spend the money for my own pleasure. My father almost me killed because of that, but of course he wouldn't do such, that is why I had all the chance to change for the better. I joined the school band and became known around the campus, being the only one who knows how to play the instruments, from the lyre to the bass. I thought I would be lucky about dealing with girls then. But only one girl had catch my attention and I just can't snatch it back no matter how much I tried. I approached so many girls just to keep my eyes away from her view. But her eyes shines so bright when she smiles, I couldn't resist myself from looking. And then my tongue just won't cooperate that I couldn't converse directly with the one I am with. Shame on me.
I had my first and foremost chance of dealing with her by the time Jam introduced her to me as his girlfriend. It tore me into pieces when I see them together but sparks my faith knowing that our circles have interfered at last. The idea of having the chance to be nearer her has made me excited even if it hurts seeing them doing sweet, silly things together. But it didn't kill the hope that burns inside me. Because I know that what they are, what they have, was never meant to last. There is something I know. Something that will break her. And I waited for it. I waited for her to be broken. Because I have set myself prepared to catch and fix her.
BINABASA MO ANG
Struck Me Down
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