My Crush....

  It was a great, Monday morning. I didn't like Monday's as they were shitty all the time. Until I got some new information... I was leaving... I mean.. I didn't care for my school that much, but Id miss my only true love. He always say "Hey" to me everyday. Id always blush and think of us together forever. But that was NOT gonna happen at all. As I got into school, he didn't say "Hey" and I got very paranoid.. I don't know WHY! I went to the bathroom and cried for hours.. Now, I didn't give a fuck if I left.. All of my stuff in life was GONE. I got out of the bathroom, I slowly walked to my next class, I seen him... He was talking to some other GIRL!! I was like what the??! As soon as lunch came, I got bullied by some "Popular girls" They didn't even LOOK pretty. They were telling me " Oh my gosh, Look at that FAT SO!" -giggles- And I just looked at them, like as if I didn't know what they were talking about. At lunch, I sat alone.. and I wrote a letter.. For all my "so called friends". It said " Dear Diary, I hope I die in a fucking hole, and then someone can take a match and burn it up for all I god damn care" Some girl came over and gasped. The bell rang, and I ran to my next class. My crush was making out with the girl I saw earlier. I was done. As soon school was over, I ran home, desperately. As soon as I came home, My mom seen me and said " Oh Lexi, I got your bags ready to go! You got five minutes to get ready" I said Okay, thanks mom! I took a knife with me in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and said " I hope you like me, now hope you like what you fucking did" I cut myself saying "Dead" XOXO and I went out into my moms cabinet and took all her pills. I ran into back into the bathroom, and put the bathtub water running. I choked myself into the bathtub, making me breathe air into my lungs. Seeing life for the last time in my eyes before I was gone in hell, for all my sins of suicide. I knew I belonged there. I knew that, my life wasn't great at all:(