People think pain is a simple ripping of a scab or a simple paper cut people think they are ready to give up when a score in a basket ball game isn't made or when they bake something and it doesn't turn out right. Well its not. Pain is simply seeing your favorite hello and your saddest goodbye your favorite hug or favorite smile not be seen or heard. You see them but not to you. You hear it but to another girl. Your hardest goodbye is given to another girl. You say hello and it starts a weird vibe. You realize your ready to give up when you say hey have a good rest of your day and have a good game today but he never says it back. In fact no eyecontace from him was made. You miss him already its barley been a few minutes and you sit here crying in a Monday at 2ish and you don't understand what you did wrong you go through your messages and you can't see it. U see him more than you thought but it isn't always physically its mainly mentally. You see him in your dreams and every thought . you couldn't sleep the night before because you were afraid of him hurting him self so you stay up all night to make sure he is okay. You go to school and everything is fine. You hug. You talk. You say hello. But then there is not a single word after that. You ask a million questions. And still want more. You sit here listening to something you usually don't you listen to country and sad music because it makes you think but your just tired or at least that's what you think. You thought you guys were the best friends you could ever meet. You thought everyone was jealous of. You friendship but you can't even think of anything except for the promise.and that's what ruined us all. I should've said no. But again I'm making u feel like crap because I can't forget the weekend . it was special it was amazing but something happens to make you forget I was here you seem to know but not care. Please just understand you are my smile aar 2in the morning and my laugh when someone tells me a stupid joke your my butterfly in my stomach I hate the way this feels suddenly I'm scared to be around. The air is getting harder and hrder to breath .
