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estrella
"wats good star" greeted my good ol' friend abigail as she stopped by my locker. "ayeeeee abby, not much the usual ya know" i said giving her a side hug. "yea i feel you" she responded.

the bell then rang signally 1st period will commence in 2 minutes. we walked together to music since we have it together, having small talks here & there.

once we arrived to the classroom Mrs. Kasdorf was already passing out work sheets.

"alright class i have a special announcement. so we'll be having a guess by the end of the week, not just any guess tho this is wat you 8th graders call legitimate" she said throwing a west side sign trynna use legit in a sentence. you see Mrs. Kasdorf isn't like any other teacher she's in her mids 50's & overall quite pleasant for a women her age. a few kids snickered why others tried to get wat they've seen out of their system. "anyways" she continued "there would be one lucky person who will perform at the end of the semester at the musical theatre auditorium in front of the whole school with this special guess. however the only way you'll be able to perform is if your up for the task & whoever can sing the part best. the auditions will start tomorrow, the song can either be original or already sang..."

i zoned out before she could finish thinking of wat song i should sing tomorrow. i could either do one of my owns or one some artist already have.

a couple of my original's are named , hello, wildest dream, tattooed heart, hands to myself & my all time favorite good for you. (pretend that they didn't sing these)

or i could do flashlight by Jessy J, honeymoon avenue by Ariana Grande, work by Rihanna or count on me by Bruno Mars .

i definitely going for an original becua- i was interrupted by a tap on my shoulder "pst pst estrella" i turned around to see abby looking at me with a confuse expression on her face. "wats wrong" i asked. "i should be asking you that i called your name like 100 times" she whispered/yelled. "oh umm... i was just um.. thinking of wat song to sing tomorrow" i told her.

her face immediately lit up & said "OMG YOUR TOTALLY GOTTA DO ONE OF YOUR SONG STAR! YOU HAVE TO I MEAN THEY ARE AMA-" i quickly reach over to her & put my hand over her mouth causing a couple of attention on us. i did this bc i really don't want people to know i write songs. why? well bc i don't want them to to steal my idea .

"Mrs. Kasdorf i can't wait to be performing on stage with this mystery guest" Nichole or a.k.a a snobby bitch/school slut/attention seeker said in her high pitched squeaky voice.

"well ms. Davis aren't you so confident about this" Mrs. Kasdorf said.

confident my ass more like conceited i muttered to myself

"wat was that estrella" Nichole said getting everyone's attention

shit did i say that out loud

"i said, 'wow i can feel the positive vibe your giving (or more like the selfishness)' Nichole" i said playing it off giving her a fake smile.

before she could say anything back the bell rang signaling 2nd period. i grabbed my bag & headed out the door to see Abby waiting there for me to go to class.

the rest of the day went by fast & when the clock hit 3:00 we were dismissed. since i didnt have a car i had to go walking home but i didnt mind bc it gave me some time to clean out my mind.

as i got home i unlocked the door & as always being hit with the smell of achohol & smoke.

"mom im home" i shouted. i went to the kitchen & put my backpack on my counter. i walked tords the refrigerator & opened it & as always it was empty. "MOM" i shouted again. i furrowed my eyebrows once i didn't get a respond back. "MOOOOOOM?" yet again I heard nothing. nada. zero.

i began to look around the house for any signs of my mom. living room? no. her room? no. the kitchen? no. the closet? no. i quickly rushed to the restroom & to my luck it was locked. "mom are you in there?" no response "mom open up!" i started pounding on the door while twisting the handle.

i started panicking so i got the bobby pin that was in my hair & used it to open the door. once i successfully opened the door i was horrified. tears came rushing down my eyes like a waterfall. "mommy?" i went by the side of my lifeless mother. she was in the tub with a bottle of pills in one of her hand.

"OMG! NOOO MOM. WAKE UP PLEASE I NEED YOU PLEASE DONT GO WAKE UP WAKE UP I-I NEED YOU" i was shaking her trying to wake her up but deep down i knew it was no use she was... dead. "MOMMMYYY" by this time i began sobbing.

i got my phone out my pocket & dailed the first person that popped into my head.

ring

ring

ri-

"hello" the voice on the other end said. "i ne-ed you" my voice cracked. "hey hey wats wrong" "sh- she's d- d- dead" i said pinching my eyes trying to stop the tears from falling but it was no use. "breathe ok. now tell me whose dead." I took in a deep breathe & started speaking. "my m-mom.. she .. uh s-she ov-overdosed" i said trying my best to sound clear.

i heard a faint omg. "everything is gonna be okay alright. i'll be there in 5. i'll call the ambulance, i know it's hard but it'll get better." i couldn't even reply back due to my crying. i clicked the end button & layed next to my mom & noticed a note laying beside her. i reached for it & began reading it

Dear sweetie,
by this time i will be gone. im so sorry. i know it will be hard but please try & not shut anyone off. my life wasn't the best nor I was the best mother but don't think once i regretted having you. you were the best thing that ever happened to me. you taught me so many thing like how to love unconditionally, how to keep a smile on my face, & much more. it was time for me to leave. i know you will do better on your own. I wasn't the best example of a role model due to my addiction for drugs but I hope one day you'll understand & forgive me baby. I'm truly sorry for leaving you like this but just know I'll be watching over you every second of the day. I love you.
yours truly,
mom

By the end of the letter my I felt my throat in a knott & my vision bout to shut off because of the amount of tears build up in my eyes.

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~estrella
   its short ik but wat do you guys think ? in the story estrella will be played as Barbra Palvin & if you dont like it you can just refer as anyone you like .