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Amity chapter 1

       Hello, my name is Amity, there's not that much that is too interesting about me but I guess i'll try. I was born in 2000 in ohio to a great family that has loved me unconditionally, from what i've heard i was a very happy little child. All my life I haven't been the typical little girl, I always enjoyed playing in the mud, getting messy, and I absolutely HATED dressing up.

        When I got older in the fifth and sixth grade that changed a bit, I was still quite the tomboy but I started having a need to fit in with everyone else. I would wear nice clothes that I really hated in all honesty and I would be friends with people who were extremely cruel just because they were popular since I wanted to fit in,I was pretty miserable in those two years.

         Luckily for me when I made it into middle school all of those people dropped me, which may seem bad but in the long run they just hurt me more than they should have so it turned out well. Back to middle school though, after all those people left I met two great people who I would not give up for the world, Ellie and Natalia. Those two changed something in me that I am really thankful for to this day, they showed me that the world was not how I thought it was. I learned that I didn't need to fit in to have the people who loved me be there, if they really loved me for me then they wouldn't care what I was into or dressed like as long as it was me.

          After a while of the three of us being together non stop Natalia found this band called Sleeping with Sirens, and wow did Ellie and I get into them quickly. Almost in the blink of an eye we were all listening to heavy metal and dressing in black, it was honestly pretty crazy.

            Our next big craze was anime and anything japanese, which for our school at least was pretty strange. I mean can you imagine we were the only girls in the school who could go from fangirling over Ereri to jamming out to Chelsea Grin in two seconds flat, this continued throughout seventh and eighth grade surprisingly with no bullying issues.

             Then we hit high school, Ellie figured out she was a lesbian, Natalia realized she was bisexual, and me, well I just purely didn't care about who I dated, I never labeled myself as pansexual or bisexual I just loved who I loved and didn't give it a second thought. That seems to be when the bullying started, I think it was after Ellie started dating Jennie (you could say Natalia and I were Jellie all the way) after that everyone found out about us and freaked out.

             Once all of that started all of my depression began, sadly it hit Ellie too. Along with the depression I started staying in more and I became very secluded. One of the perks of being inside all the time is I got on my phone and computer often, where I happened to make one if my closest friends, Levi. If I remember correctly we met because, me being a hardcore Ereri shipper, loved his name, from then on we talked non stop.

             A lot of times there were moments I had where neither Ellie nor Natalia could help me but somehow Levi always found a way to get whatever was wrong out of me and make me feel better. But even though I had made a friend that I hoped would be there for me forever, things along the line of depression did not get better. The bullies did not get better either they would say things along the lines of ,
      "Wow what a whore"

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       "go kill yourself". At one point I got so worried about all of the people calling me ugly that I got my hair cut, at the time I had long black hair with dark blue at the ends, once I cut it it was just black in a pixie cut. Personally I loved my hair the way it turned out and so did my friends, but the rest of the school didn't. At this point to everyone I was a boy, I wouldn't really care about being called a boy except for the fact the generally all of the people at my school were homophobes and they assumed that i was transgender, which initially led to them avoiding me at all costs and calling me queer.

          Once Ellie witnessed all of the horrible things that they were doing because of something as simple as me changing my hair she also cut hers, but not in a pixie cut hers was more of a masculine cut. It looked nothing less than beautiful.

        This is where I will end my life story and start my story for you, on one of my favorite nights.

           Natalia, Ellie and I are sitting on the couch with Levi in the middle on a video chat, watching attack on titan for the millionth time. Ellie and Levi are in a heated debate about attack on titan middle school, which if I may say honestly is quite funny. As I listen to the two bicker about marco and jean, suddenly I jump about five feet out of my seat after hearing Natalia (who was apparently watching the show closely) scream at the top of her lungs,

          "THAT WAS A KICK OF LOVE" and then start sobbing into the dog she was holding. Almost immediately I burst into laughter mixed with tears and fell on the floor with a loud thud after a few seconds I could hear Ellie fall on the floor right next to me with about the same amount of laughter. By the time we finally got it back together we looked up to the tv to see Eren showing how his tooth had grow back.

           I decided to look over to see how levi was only to hear him still rolling on the ground. Still laughing slightly to myself I checked the time to see it was three in the morning, deciding we should go to sleep I turned the tv off, which immediately stopped Natalia's sobbs that quickly turned into quiet whimpers. After a few minutes we were finally settled into sleeping bags on the floor, we decided to leave Levi on since we knew he would hang up when needed. Once I hit the pillow I was dead asleep.