It scares me how people easily lie without even second guessing it. There's so many times when people ask how we're doing and most times we'll say, We're good when really not. We don't even think to tell them if we're really not fine and I just figure out it's our problem to deal with it.
And there are two things that define you. Your patience when you have nothing, and your attitude when you have everything.
1 year ago..
"Robert pagsabihan mo yang si Sophia ha! Lagi nalang siyang gabi umuuwi, laging hindi pumapasok! What the hell is wrong with that girl, is she out of his mind!? We give everything, at ito lang ang isusukli niya sa atin?" Dad hugged her after she said those words.
Narinig ko lang na nagsisigawan sila Mommy so lumapit ako sa kanila, pero ako rin pala pinaguusapan nila. Nawalan kasi ako bigla ng gana sa lahat ng bagay after ako bigyan ng cold treatment ni Mommy.
"Nathalie calm down. Baka marinig ka nila." Sabi ni daddy sa kanya, humarap si mommy sa kanya at nakita kong galit na galit si mommy.
"Robert, hindi natin siya anak! Kaya wala akong pake sa babaeng yon kaya pagsabihan mo siya!" After what mom said. Tumakbo ako sa kwarto ko at umiyak ng umiyak. Nastress ako sa sinabi ni mommy. Nagmukmok ako at wala na kong pake sa mundo. Lagi lang akong nasa kwarto.
Laging nasa kwarto ko si Kuya Nikko, pero pinapaalis ko lang siya. After few months, kinausap ako ni mommy and I open up my feelings. Sinabi kong nasasaktan ako sa cold treatment niya sakin, so she say sorry at bumalik siya sa dati.
Hindi ko yun nagustuhan kasi feeling ko mas wala silang balak sabihin na hindi nila ako anak. Na ampon lang ako. Hindi ako totoong Dela Fuente.
Do you know the feeling when you just don't know where to go anymore? Trying to find yourself but fail again and again? I know that I'm supposed to go on.. But I just don't know how.
My grandmother who just died taught me that. Love will fix you.
