Internal Conflict.

Chapter 18

"You gave him a chance!?" Chace opened his eyes widely staring at me

"Yeah? What's wrong with that?!" I asked and kept fiddling with my hands, nervous and confused, I don't know why I'm nervous but he seems to keep me nervous cause I don't want to lose him or drive him mad or anything, even tho I can't find any reason to make him mad.

"I can't believe you! Maria he fucking broke you! Do you want me to remind you of the terrible things he has done to you!? Two days before he called you 'sugar' ! And you hate it! You can't do this come on!" Chace shouted.

He's shouting at me.
Chace is shouting at me

Because you're stupid.
She didn't do anything! She just gave the man a chance nothing is wrong with that
Everything is wrong with giving a man like him another chance!!
What's wrong with him!
He broke her heart, isn't that enough?!

"He seemed genuine about the chance and making everything up for me." I explained with small voice, like a little girl explaining for her father why she broke her new pink bike, or broke her doll's neck.

"Of course he would show you some honesty in his apology! He didn't even apologize!" He threw his hands in the air and the tips of his ears are red in anger.

"It's just.. He saved my life once! I owe him my life Chace, I do owe him my goddamn life! Without him now only god knows where I would be!"

"But because of him also you are scared of your own shadow!"

"That was not because of him."
"Yes it was."

"It was Abbie! Did you forget Chace?! Abbie is the one who payed for Mark to fucking kidnap me and torture me! She's the one who broke me and almost killed me! I was thinking that it was Mark and Alice taking revenge of me because I became friends with Niall, but fuck no! Niall have got no hand in what have happened! It's all because of our psycho ex best friend." I inhale deeply after this speech and luckily I didn't break down yet.

"But afterwards, didn't he break you ? Didn't he date your 'psycho bestie' when it was too obvious for the blinds that you're in LOVE with him."

"He didn't know." I defended him.

"Why are you even defending him!" He snapped at me and I lick my lip.

"Why are you even mad about it! It's not like you would save my arse if you were around you selfish bastard!" I realized what I screamed after I saw his facial expressions , I gulp and frown, slapping myself mentally for what I just said.

"I didn't m-" he cut me off by pushing me to the nearest wall and leaning down, his breath brushing the skin of my jawline and skin, feeling some hotness on my lower lip caused by his hot breath, he looked deadly in my eyes , his body pushed mine to the wall keeping me glued to the wall, his hands beside my head above my shoulders, only inches separated us and he rasped out "don't come back to me crying when he break you this time."

He kept staring at me and I held my breath, fucking surprised, I looked down at his lips, pink parted lips and fucking hard jawline, I took a look at his eyes, dark eyes, furrowed eyebrows , I watch as he leans down more as in a kiss, and I felt my knees shaking we're friends.

He brushed his lips to my ear instead of kissing me, his lips brushed my ear and and whispered "you don't know what you've became, you became prettier, hotter, braver than anytime, you're fucking hot and every guy in this town would love to fuck your ass, and I don't want this to happen, I want you safe, I want you unbroken, but if you want to be with Niall, he'll break you, he's willing to use you then break you, he's willing to fuck you, to sleep with you and USE you for his own benefits then throw you and walk away like nothing happened ,and I don't want that, Maria."

He start to pull back slowly, increasing the distance between his lips and my ear but decreasing the distance between our bodies, I can feel his muscles on my body, his thighs, his abs, his fucking stomach, he started to decrease the distance between our lips slowly.

Don't kiss me.
Kiss me Chace do it
No don't
Stop! Back off!
Go on, yes yes, closer
YES!
NO! We're friends!

The voices in my head never stop as his s lips connected with mine, my lower lip between his lips, his upper one between mine, he kissed my lower lip, he sucked on my lower lip, I feel my lower lip melting between the warmth of his lips, he sucked one more time ready to take my upper lip between his own, I felt like a statue, I felt like all the blood drained from my body, when I regained my power, with the conflict inside of me, I slapped him.

He pull back with raised brows, shocked face.

Stupid.

"What are you doing Chace!"

"I-I.." He stutter and kept looking at me.

he left the room seconds later and I kept my back glued to the wall, I can't believe what just happened, Chace kissed me.

Fucking Chace kissed Fucking Maria.

I can't believe what just happened I set on the floor and run my fingers on my lips, I have to admit that his kiss is foreign, it's wrong, it feels wrong, Chace is like a brother to me and I would never think of him as more than a brother, would I?!