One day you told me you were always gonna be there
Then one day you were gone and I was so scared
Mama had to raise five kids on her own
Several times we were put out of our home
You weren't there for graduations and holidays
You only sent us Hallmark cards on our birthdays
You said you loved us and that you're gonna see us soon
Thought I believed that? In my heart theres no room
For your lies and all of your selfish ways
I prayed to God that I'd see you another day
Asking him everyday why you couldn't stay
And then I realized you were gon be you, anyway
Mama wasn't an angel
But five kids she had to raise
Four daughters who loved you
A son that gave you praise
Your daughters first boyfriend
And your sons first best friend
You were neither of these things
And you call yourself a man?
Not everything mama told me I believed
But with my own eyes God allowed me to see
All the struggle and the pain that you put here through
I pray to God, I don't marry a fool like you
All I'm asking is for you to do is look
Your youngest daughter always got her head up in the books
Look at my progress and look at my success
Making it without you, yo, I'm doing my best
But them boys
Them selfish boys broke my heart
Expecting them to be like you
Right from the start
Treating me wrong
And then leaving me
Thats what they did tho
Now, are you happy?
See, you never really took the time to talk and teach me
Let me believe, that they can get it easy
I used to wonder if you ever really loved me
Turned out you had a whole new family
Spending every day with them
Buying them food
While we're over here runnin' round
With holes in our shoe
Mama raised us
The best way that she knew
While you were over there
Chillin back without a clue
Man, you don't know
What you did to me
Every time I look at you I question,
"Why'd you leave?"
I know my mama was a crazy kinda woman but the youngest child that you had when you left was still a youngin'
Only memory of you, that she had.
Was her yelling
And screaming at you
"Don't hit her, dad!!"
After she saw, her fathers actions
Oh so clear
Anything he had to say
She didn't wanna hear
After everything you done
Every lie you said
All of these years
It's still in her headvb
When she's strong around you
It's not because she can be
It's because she's thinking of the days
That you were a deadbeat
When she, had to be strong for her mother
When she was low
Because you kept hitting her
Blow after blow
The years go by and she gets stronger
It's like every time she succeeds you go farther
Saying, "She don't need me, thats why she got her mother."
Shes over here saying the same thing bout you 'cause you're my father
She's tired man
She's done enough
All I ask of you to do
Is to father up
Teach your son
All the things that he missed
And love your daughters
Like you used your fists
You might think this is rude
But so are you
My mother's very proud of me
I doubt you are too
See imma stay in school
And imma graduate
But when I'm all grown
It's gon be too late
For your apologies
And all of your forgive me's
All I ask of you to do
Is be proud of me
I won't ask for money
I won't ask for clothes
These are material things
That I can own
When I graduate
I wanna see you smile
Have you thinking to yourself,
"I'm proud of my child."
All the time that we lost
We can't get it back
Just be thankful to God
I still call you dad
One day, I'll forgive. But I haven't arrived yet. So until that day, you gotta do what I did. And that's wait on me. Like I waited on you.
