Its An Ugly Story.

Introductions to Me

Let me introduce myself. I'm a sixteen year old girl. Its my junior year of high school and so far, its sucked. I suffer with depression but no one knows that. I'm secretly bisexual but I haven't come out yet, I'm unhappy all the time because I'm head over heels for a girl who I'm positive is straight and even if she wasn't she would never date a freak like me. Plus I'm so deep in that closet. I dated a girl once. She told her ex boyfriend and he told everyone and I got so scared and broke up with her which was my worst mistake because I still miss her, but I'm too scared to come out. I started to like a boy and we dated for a while and I thought oh maybe it was a phase, but. Freshman year came around and I fell for a girl on my team. She's beautiful, her hair, smile, personality, sense of humor, she always puts a smile on my face.

I mean I'm not ugly, I'm attractive, I have medium brown hair, brown eyes, I'm pretty short I'm about five feet five inches. I don't usually wear makeup. I'm athletic and like music. Typical teenager.

Anyways my depression started in about eighth grade. I tried to kill myself, I took a bottle of pills and after I woke up I just couldn't stop throwing up. I played it off saying I was super wasted. No one noticed. No one notices what I say or do. That's why I wanted to end it. Im basically a nobody, no one cares about me. No one wants me in their life. Anyways, its been about a year since I've done any self harm. I think that's good? Enough about my past...now its time for you to hear about my everyday life.