Cold Heart

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Jané

"It's like...you put me in such a hard situation, not that you meant to...its just who you are.

You've always been that type to just drift...
The type to do what you want because it makes you happy. You sit and think a lot. You always chillin...

I know your nostalgic and
I know how you try to block out all that negative shit
I know we had lot going in the past but we all good now... Right?

-

I find myself looking at pictures of you and thinking about what could have been.
I find myself missing you and yearning for your love when your not around.

I think I deleted your number out of anger
And I'm to nervous to hit you up on Kik, or maybe your DM's

I'm scared that you might reject my effort into trying to start over again or maybe it's just me being in my feelings...
Maybe I'm thinking to hard about this...

Tbh... All I want is to be close to you

I hate that we have this wall between us...
I hate that I put myself in this situation...
I hate that I wasted my time...
And I hate that you don't love me back

I guess when you really diggin'
someone, it's hard to let go.

But I remember what you were saying when we were on the phone one night...
Talking 'bout our relationship
You told me you care about me and that you love me.
You told me my calls are more important
And I swear I felt like you were in love with me again.

That was a few months back

-

I think you blocked my number...
You won't even like pic...
I just wanna know if you still know I'm here.

Ion know....

Maybe it's time to finally leave..."

"

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