Suviour

To my readers, This chapter may be rather depressing and such so I appologise up I will TRY to make the next ones happier, I was writting this while crying my eyes out so I kinda flooded it with my feelings and shizzle, appologies :/

Luv you guys...and girls <3

Hannah-Marjourie x

(btw Marjourie is just a nickname Markie and my friend Sam gave me, if I say Catwoman then that means Markie and if I say Battran, that means Sam, okaii.... On with the story?)

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Suicide's POV:

"hey there baby doll, where you rushin' off to?" FUCK! um...think...fuck fuck fuck? no -_- think how to get away dumb ass brain >.< "get the fuck off her!" I heard someone shout.....sounds like Ashley Purdy...naaa it can't be, just stupid me thinking about black veil brides...again. I saw someone pry John off of me and Fuck me naked and bend me over backwards, it WAS Ashley Purdy. O.O I swear I'm not on any drugs so I'm Not hallucinating and I'm not crazy, I'm Psychotic, there's a major difference.

Ashley had John pinned up by the throat against his own locker which was kinda cool. "Didn't your mom ever teach you not to pin a girl to a locker? or anything for that matter?" John looked scared shitless but come on, you would be too if you had a pissed of Ashley Purdy pinning you by your throat against your own locker. John tried to punch him but his fist was then pinned right by his head. "I'll ask one last time but I'll say it slowly so you can understand. Why. Pin. A. Girl. To. A. Locker. If. You. Want. To. Have. Kids." John looked even more scared, it was kinda funny.

"I....I don't know...I thought she'd be easy...She's an emo loner chick....No one would listen to her even if she told them that....that I fucked -Ashley tightened his grip on John's throat and you could see John flinch- Raped her...they'd think she was seeking at...attention...." I heard Ashley growl before he smashed John's head into his locker "Touch Her again and I'll come off Tour just to Personally beat the fuck out of you. Got It." All you heard was John's whimper and the sound of him pissing himself. Kind of amusing...if your like me that is xD

Ashley dropped him and John ran for it. "You okaii?" All I could do was nod. He rolled his eyes and I swear I heard him mutter "Great another fan that only likes us 'cause of how we look, any minute now she'll either faint or jump me" I rolled my eyes. "Those fans are sluts, something I am not thank you very much." He looked at me like he was shocked I heard him. "I have good hearing." Was my simple yet lame excuse. "So your not going to jump me?" There was hope in his eyes. "Nope. Though I must say I love your guitar skills so if I were to jump something, it'd be your guitar."

He chuckled then it was like a light bulb went off "Please tell me you have FaceBook?!?" Okaaiii I Did Not see that comeing, I thought he'd be like "What? Not Hot enough? You Rather jump Andy?!" Or something xD "Um yes? Why?" His eyes lit up, What the fuck? "Can I add you? Please oh please oh pleaseeeee" He was doing that annoyingly cute one eyed puppy dog look that all Emos can pull of because of their fringes/bangs (what ever you want to call them) that cover one or both of their eyes, its so damn cute >.< "So I add you duh" He rolled his eyes though you could only see the one. "But whyyyy?" I did my peekaboo puppy look, theres a difference...don't know what it is but there is a difference! "So I can put you as my fav fan, pleaseeeee" I rolled my eyes and logged onto FaceBook useing my phone. Ash snuck a look at my profile and with in two seconds the request thingy poped up saying "Ashely Purdy Confirm/Confirm Later" So I clicked confirm and less than a second later, two more requests "Ashely Purdy - Family Request - Sister" and "Ashely Purdy has added you in the group Band, Fam, Friends and Fav Fan"

We walked down the hall and then he got that light bulb look yet again -rolls eyes- "Yes Ashely?" He seemed weird... "Why do you look so depressed? And what have you got now?" He asked. Crap...Fuck it, I'll tell him...part of it. He'll Understand. "I've got Music and the reason I look depressed is because I lost the guy I love through a stupid mistake  ( this part is a true story :/ its what happened between the love of my life Markie and I and how I lost him, always love you Markie if your reading this, I said Forever and A Day and I meant it :'/ I don't want to stay best friends, I want the guy I love back and I know it'll never happen, I love you so much :'c sorry to everyone else but i had to put it anyways back to the story) It was a majorly screwed up day and I hadn't spoken to him for a day or two and my other best friend Marty asked me out, knowing I was going out with Markie and...I don't know, I was pissed off with my parents, I was stressed out, confused and a shit load of other things and for some reason I said I'd agree to an open relationship if Markie did so two or three days later, I talked to Markie, told him about it and we split up. Fucked thing is after thinking about it all, I figured that I loved Markie with all but one tiny shard of my heart but that tiny shard has always betrayed me, always has and always will" I felt a few tears snake down my cheeks, if it weren't for the fact that we aren't outside and its not raining, I would have just let them flow. "What would you do if you could go back?" Ashley asked in a sad voice. "I would still tell him but...Truth be told, I don't know, all I know is that I still love him and I want him back, I know I should be happy we're still best friends but I love him move than the air I need to breath or the Beat I need to live, I love him more that the moon loves her stars, More than fish need water and more than a bird can sing. I just...I hope I die a slowly and painfully. Its no less than I deserve. I've lost my true love and no matter how hard I'll try, he'll never take me back and to be honest, I deserve it, I deserve everything I get...I...Just want him back, He was my saviour, my love, my life, my Everything. Without him, I might as well kill myself."

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Well guys and girls, I hope It wasn't too depressing, I apologise if this first chapter was but I wrote this while crying my eyes out and Markie, if your reading this, I meant every word I said about you :/  since yesterday all i've done is cry or destract myself by writting poems, drawing or singing to bvb, I know I hurt you and I know its impossible for you to believe and its too late but Markie I love you so much and I never wanted to hurt you. and as I said in the story, Your My Saviour, My Love, My Life and My EVERYTHING! i just wish you'd take me back but after what i did, its impossible >.> again, i appologise to my readers but i fucked up everything with the love of my life and i dont want or need anyone else, i just want him back, i'm sure many of you have felt the same and are thinking that i'll move on but i wont, Markie IS the love of my LIFE and I fucked it all up, for that i apologise but i'm begging you, give me one more chance, just one and I'll do everything i can to make it up to you. after all, everyone, even worthless bitches like me deserve a second chance, if the rolls were reversed, I'd take you back within a heart beat.