Four, for you

- written by @seuldylicious on twt

@ april 15, 2015

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It's only an hour before I become 22 years old. I don't know if i'm excited or what. Mixed feelings, yep.

I'm holding four gifts for me. She, well, probably, sent these for four days straight before my birthday. It was sent by someone with a codename deer. I'm kinda interested in it since it's all my favorite things that I think my fans don't even know.

Chanyeol hyung asked, "Hey, Sehun-ah! Why are you so quiet?"

I just shrugged and they continued partying without me, the birthday celebrant sheesh.

"Hmm?" I noticed that my phone vibrated. Ugh. More greetings?

< unknown number >

Happy Birthday, Sehun! I'm sorry I couldn't see you on your birthday. I don't even know if I have the right to miss you. I still love you.

Is this my ex-girlfriend or something? I always block their number when we break up.

< to unknown number >

Who are you? Are you a sasaeng? How did you know my number?

< unknown number >

You know me very well. Sehun-ah please, I'll never delete your number. ever.

< to unknown number >

Just tell me who you are!!

< unknown number >

I can't resist this anymore. Please look out the window. You'll know who I am.

I looked out the window and saw someone very familiar...

Especially to me.

His beautifully structured face... the only one i've longed for for a very long time..

"Hyung...." My tears started to fall. Like a faucet opened full blast. I-I can't stop my tears from flowing down to my cheeks.

I missed him too much.

The other members noticed my tears and asked me if i'm okay. I just looked out the window and ran.

It's a good thing I was fast in running so I went down to him, my hyung.

I ran down as fast as I could but he wasn't there anymore.

"HYUNG! WHERE ARE YOU?" I shouted at the top of my lungs.

No one is here. I looked at my phone and it showed that it was 11:11 at the moment.

But where is ... hyung?

My phone vibrated again,

< unknown number >

I guess I wasn't ready to see you again.

I tried calling him but he didn't answer.

I sighed deeply. "HYUNG!! PLEASE LET ME SEE YOU." I tried shouting again, hoping he'd show up.

"You didn't ... even say goodbye when you left."

My tears continued falling.

"You never once left my mind ever since. At least let me see you face for a moment. Please?"

I kneeled down on the floor, crying my heart out.

Just this day, on the day of my birthday.

"It was so hard missing you and looking at you at a far when you were always by my side before."

My heart is aching right now. I don't know what to feel.

I heard a rustle near me and ran to it. I saw him and held his hand.

"When did you come here?" I smiled a bit.

He chuckled and I swear it was one of the things I missed most. "You don't have to know. Did you enjoy the gifts i sent you?"

I just nodded and stared at him as if it's the last time I'm seeing him.

I was confused. So all those gifts were from him? "Okay, but why four gifts?"

"April, our month. The fourth month of the year is our month, of course."

He looked away and blushed. I gently held his face too so he would look at me.My tears stopped already. My face is red but I'm smiling.

"Your presence is the best gift I have received this year, you know?"

He smiled aesthetically but it quickly faded.

His tears on his eyes started and flowing as the rain started to pour.

He looked me in the eyes and said, "Are you willing to fight for me, Sehun? Against your company? Against the world?"

I heard lightnings flashing through the sky.

I looked away from his wet and red eyes because of crying, yet he was still sparkling.

He was utterly beautiful. No, scratch that. No words can describe how precious, and angelic he is.

"I knew your answer from your hesitation."

My eyes widened and i looked at him again, but I was too late.

"No... Don't...."

I love you very much with all my heart, body and soul, hyung. But I think we just can't be together...

Let's just... let fate decide?

He already ran away.

He was right in front of my eyes just now, yet

I let him go.

< unknown number >

Happy Birthday once again, Sehun. I'm sorry for disturbing you.

< to unknown number >

I'm sorry and thank you for always being there for me, hyung. I love you.

•••

somewhere near that place where they last met....

"I wish the world I love didn't fall apart like mine did."