I held her wrists carefully with bandages, rocking her from side to side. God, I hated hospitals, so lonely. Locked windows, white everywhere. So fucking creepy. But, Jenna was here, she was my sister. I couldn't let her be alone. She was still crying. Her failed suicide attempt is just going to mess her up more. I knows how it feels. I have tried to commit suicide on May 21st every year, for the past three. I had to stay strong this May, it was May 20, 8:47 p.m. I have to stay strong for Jenna.
We have always lived a rough life. Our mom was killed by our dad, he is in jail, and we lived with our uncle. Jenna has had it harder than me, our uncle molested her when she was 13. My little brother Mike is 15 also. He never knew that Jenna was molested until last year, i told him, because he didn't know what was wrong with her. She is now 15, which makes me 17. We are now in foster care. Our uncle got put in jail, and ever since that year, Jenna was bullied, because she finally came out being lesbian. I have always stuck up for her. But im graduating this year. So I don't know what to do. I have to figure out something. Jenna is in 11th grade, so is Mike. Maybe I can fail purposely? That might be it. I don't get bullied as much, because my band is a pretty big hit in my school. Just my school. I told Jaime, Mike, and Tony to wait outside, because I needed to talk to Jenna alone.
"Jen, are you okay? If you need me, I'll always be here. I love you, you keep my stable every year, and I need you. I will never pick my band before you. You can count on that. I refuse to leave this hospital bed, unless you order me to. If that, im coming back. I still have to sneak you in food, knowing you are vegitarian. So I have to leave for that too. You are my knight in shining armor. Stay strong baby girl." I whisper into Jenna's ear.
She takes a deep breathe and turns around. She looks at me when she is still crying, and keeps on looking into my eyes for about 3 minutes. I wipe the tears off her face. And pull her in for a hug, she starts to cry even more, once she reaches my shoulder. I have no problem with this. This is just the least I can do for her.
" I love you Vic." Jenna makes out between breathes, and tears.
I smile back, and get off the bed to grab my guitar.
She sets up high, surrounded by the sun.
One million branches and she loves every one. "Mom and dad, did you search for me? I've been up hear so long, im going crazy"
The sun went down, we ended up on the ground, I hear the train shake the windows, you screamed over the sound.
And as we own this night, I put your body to the test with mine, this love was out of control.
3-2-1 were did it go?
I sang Hold on Till' May to Jenna, she knew that song came out of my heart, and I loved it, so she smiled, but I can tell it was just an act. She was still upset.
Will I ever get my Jenna back?
