Things I Could Never Tell You

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July 13, 5:22 pm.

No matter if I try to deny it. I still have very strong feelings for you. This is why this decision I have to make is hard. And it really doesn't matter if I want to get rid of those feelings. Feelings are feelings and they don't tend to go away that easily. Feelings rely on the things that we love, and sometimes these same things are the ones who can most destroy us.

Cameron asked me to be his girlfriend today.

We were in a small bench, and there was a small breeze running through our faces. He looked really nervous and tense.

"What's wrong, Cam?" I asked, chewing my inner cheeks.

"W-What do you think about d-dating?" He questioned, scratching the back of his neck. I didn't understand what he truly meant by that, so I just answered him.

"Dating is for the weak," I simply answered.

He gulped for a moment. I noticed that he was really nervous.

"Why?" I inquired.

"I-I was just w-wondering," He stammered.

"Wondering what?" I asked.

"Do you wanna be w-weak with me?" He stuttered once more, trying to avert his gaze from me.

My eyes widened a little. I joined pieces with pieces and thought a little. He was asking me if I wanted to date him. I felt my cheeks blushing furiously. I was Stephanie Olsen. I never blushed.

Oh, God.

"Cameron, I-I..." I whispered, tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear.

"You don't have to answer now, baby." He whispered, resting his forehead on mine. "Take your time. Just think about it and keep and mind that I am completely crazy about you." A small smile made way to his lips.

"Okay..." I muttered.

He grabbed his earphones and cellphone out of his pocket and gave an earbud to me. You Found Me by The Fray was playing. We sat there, just looking at the sky for some minutes. I leaned my head on his shoulder and he smiled. Inside, I was a chaos. I kept thinking and overthinking every single thing. Outside, I just forced a smile.

But I once read somewhere that we have to decide the option of things that most makes us happy.

And well, Cameron makes me happy.