Promises were made to be broken, to make you feel special, as if this simple word could change fate.
As if this one word could reverse time, bring things back, could turn the clock back.
Someone very special to me is dead now, nothing of their promise can bring them back.
"I'll always be with you"
That's what you said, did you really mean it...
This petty, pathetic little word, can't change lives, it can't and won't do anything other than blind us all with the fantasy thought of being able to finally relax.
To feel safe and secure; as if our hearts mean nothing, are nothing more than you're little toys.
As if the world only revolved for you, and you know what? It did.
No one means anything to you, all you care about is your selfish desires.
When you said
"I love you"
Did you mean it?
When you said
"It can't be anyone but you"
Did it really have to be me?
Or were you just teasing my heart as your puppet as you did everyday.
You're already breaking my heart everyday.
When you promised to protect me, did you promise to protect yourself?
When you promised you'd always think about me, did you think about how you are?
No, of course not; you have no idea of how you make others feel.
You only care about yourself, if someone was feeling down, you'd cheer them up, just to see their reaction.
I wish you'd said
"Let's get him together"
My mental state is getting worse without you by my side.
Why did you have to die?
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to be so selfish?
Why did all of this have to happen?
Why can't I just turn back time?
You have no idea what you make others go through.
Always saying the positive, never the negative; thinking that you're not doing anything wrong as long as it wasn't your intention.
Even if it wasn't.
That doesn't mean it didn't.
When I say it doesn't hurt...
It means I can bear it.
This hurts far mor than anything we've ever faced.
What if...
What if I were to join you..
What if I jumped a little further..
Breathed a little less...
Cared a little less..
Let myself drown in you completely..
What if I could finally be there with you again..
You're taking over me..
You don't remember me but I remember you..
I tried so hard not to think of you..
But who, can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...
I believed in you...
I'll give up everything just to find you..
I have to be with you..
To live..
To breath..
Have you forgotten all I know?
And all 'we had?
You'd always see me mourning my love for you..
And touched my hand..
I know you loved me then...
I look in the mirror and see your face..
If I look deep enough..
So many things deep inside that want to be free..
Please..
Let me go..
Because..
I can't let you go...
Gon Freecs...
