He Loves Me?

Part 1-Lonley World

Hello everyone my name is London Smith. I live in Atlanta with my mom , dad , and my little sister Nia. I'm caramel about 5 feet tall , I have long black hair and gray eyes. I go to Jackson high school. I have to best friends named Jada and Sannia. It's my last year of high school so I plan on making the best of everything .

Londons POV

This morning I woke up to my alarm clock beeping all in my ears. I cut it off and fell back to sleep only to have my mom bust in the room yelling to get up.

London get your ass up before you late for school and get your sister ready to I have to get going to work and your dad isn't here either.

Okay mom I say getting out the bed only to trip over my sheets. Today was just not my day.

I got up and went into my little sister room to see her laying out clothes.

Hey brat after you finish getting your clothes out get into the shower and be ready for school and hurry cause we're gonna be late .

Why isn't mom taking me to school like she always does she said looking up at me with her big brown eyes.

She had to leave for work so she asked my to take you to school so hurry up I said walking back to my room to get ready .

I walked in my closet and found some light skinny jeans that had rips in them and a white long sleeve tight shirt with my all white Jordan's .

I hop in the shower and wait for the water to get warm before jumping in.

I scrubbed my body for about 15 minutes then got out with my hair all wet and curly.

I went into my room and dried off then started to get ready for school. I didn't feel like doing anything to my hair so I just let it be curly for the day .

After I got dressed I went into my sister room to see if she was ready but she wasn't in her room or the bathroom.

Nia I yelled getting a little worried . I ran down the stairs to find her in the kitchen eating some cereal with her book bag next to her.

You scared me had me thinking you got kidnapped or something I said holding my chest looking at her .

Sorry I just got tired of waiting for you to get done so you can make me breakfast so I came and did it myself .

I swear my sister is so smart to be seven years old and I love that about her .

You ready to go I asked looking at the time on my phone. We were gonna be late so no point to rush.

She got up and put her bowl in the sink and walked over to the door with her book bag on her shoulder .

We walked out the house to her school which was only about six blocks away from the house . After I dropped her off I went to my school.

I was late so I wasn't gonna rush. While I was walking to class I saw the only person in the world I ever hated.

Look what we got here little miss London walking the halls by herself like she run shit around here .

I tried to walk pass him but he grabbed my arm pulling back into the hard locker. I grabbed my back out of pain and rubbed it.

When I'm talking to you don't just try and walk off who do you think you are.

Leave me alone Carter why can't you just leave me be instead of messing with me everyday I don't even know why you don't like me I'm always nice to everyone I said looking into his hazel brown eyes .

Carter is a good looking boy but he is always messing with me like I did something to him when I never even really talked to him. The only time I talk to him is when he messes with me .

I don't like you. You walk around like you the shit and like your shit don't stink and like nobody else in the world can't  compare to you he said gripping my arm tighter .

I was getting mad. What are you talking bout I treat everyone nice and I don't think I am better then anyone i am just confident I yelled in his face.

I snatch my arm away from him and walk to my class a little sad. Should I be bothered by what he said I mean maybe he is right about me thinking i am better then everyone else and I just didn't realize it.

I stopped in my tracks thinking about everything he just said to me and I honestly started to feel bad about myself.

I shake it off and walked to my class which was history. I am a straight A student and I have always been since the six grade.

When I walked in the class I was trying to hide so that Mr.Long didn't see me but it didn't work.

Why are you late Ms. Smith. Everyone in the class turned and looked at me I felt embarrassed and I couldn't get the words out my mouth to answer Mr. Longs question.

Just sit down and don't let it happen again Mr. Long said not even looking at me. I walked fast to my seat and as soon as I got near it Naomi one of the schools sluts trips me.

Everyone in my class began laughing at me. I was to embarrassed to stay in class so I just got up brushed my clothes off and ran to the bathroom.

I cried and cried. I took my razor out my book bag and started to cut up my arms like my life depended on it.

You see I have been cutting myself since I was in the ninth grade. It was just a stress reliever for me. After I was done crying and cutting myself I look up at myself in the mirror and I looked bad. My eye were red and puffy.

I didn't want to stay in school anymore so I decided I was gonna leave. As I was putting my razor back in my book bad I started to feel dizzy. I tried to keep my balance but it didn't work. I feel so hard onto the floor and hit my head. I was trying my hardest to keep my eyes open but I couldn't and then everything went black.............

I opened my eyes only to close them again because it was to bright. Once my eyes adjusted to the light I look around a noticed I was in the hospital. I had a IV in my arm and a hospital gown on.

The doctor came in and walked over to me checking my heart monitor and all that stuff.

Ms. Smith I see your awake and doing well. I nodded my head in agreement and watched him write down somethings on his clipboard.

Doctor how did I get here I said looking around my hospital room. Some girls found to in the bathroom on the floor he said. I then remembered what happened and I started to feel sad.

Doctor how come my mom and my dad are not here to see me I asked just noticing my family wasn't here.

We called both your mom and dad and they said they won't be here to see you cause there at work.

I was shocked at how much my mom and dad didn't care about me. Like they could have came and seen me but of course they didn't come.

I started to cry and just let the doctor check on me. After the doctor left I heard a knock at the door and to my surprise it was........... Carter.