Untitled poem

I've been walking for miles now , the distance has taken me far , but how far is too far ?

clear my mind to kill these

overwhelming thoughts . Boys , grown men , even GROWN ASS MEN looking at me like i'ma piece of meat .. Am i ?

Certain shit you just don't do ! life so fucked up you don't know what these people been through .

Emotionally I'm broken , physically I'm weakened , mentally I'm frozen .

So many emotions so each tear drop is for each issue , each tissue dries up an ounce of my mind , soul and body thats full of pain.

I can't explain what I feel i couldn't sum it up just a little . I miss you ! Do i ever cross your mind even just a little?

Loved you once and now this love is lasting forever . These words continue each sentence is a different piece of pain , hurt or anger.

I hated to see you go , but i couldn't stand to see you suffer the last words you spoke to me made my heart flutter made my soul smile and then i knew Gods calling was worth while .

When you rip a child away from all the know you effect them and the way they grow , you told me it was for the better and better would soon be best , but better made a left and went bad , bad went worse , and worse went wrong . now was that right ?

Made my heart bleed pissed my soul off never been so alone in my life dealing with shit like this and I have yet to experience life i wanna LIVE instead of being existent.

the lack of phone calls and text messages made our love distant

don't know how you feel cause i feel its just ME kind-sorta how its always been told me once we would always be.

Count sheep at night cause the thought of me and you always puts me right to sleep .

You walk in and out my life when you choose come fuck shit up tell me you love me and then I'm suppose to be okay ?!

I will never forget anything you've said don't forget what I said to you either!

I wanted you to remember. cold words cracked my heart , kinda how skin cracks in December .

Day dream day in day out , i ain't never had shit ! so I sit back create scenarios , like damn i wish i had it . But I'm not some materialistic wanna be , you know ?

They wanna be her , they wanna have that , they wanna see him , and they wanna wear that !

but i'm a GONNA be ! I'm gonna be ME , and I'm gonna have 3x that , I'm gonna love him and he's gonna love me back .

I wanna see the world fall in love , find ME the person i was meant to be

This place ain't fa me , I need somewhere to breathe following the trends and doing the cool shit thats not really me .