telling Connor you kissed Josh

This is my first story, so I hope you all like it. I’m not very good at writing, but I thought I’d have a go. Thanks for reading it! - Chantel

Imagine telling Connor Hutcherson, your best friend, that you kissed his brother Josh Hutcherson.

It was a hot day in Kentucky, and I had spent most of it already lying outside by my swimming pool. I was beginning to doze off when my phone started to buzz. It was my best friend Connor.

“Hey! Are you doing anything, or are you planning to lie there all day?” the good thing about Connor was, he lived next door, so he was able so see me when ever.

“I haven’t got anything planned why?” I asked before waiting a couple of minutes for a response.

“Connor?” there was no answer. I glanced at my phone and he hung up. Suddenly I felt two arms rap around me, lifting me bridal style, running full force to the pool. Before I could scream his name, we both plunged into the water, gasping for air when we reached the top.

“I thought I’d surprise you!” he said with a cheeky grin on his face.

“Well you certainly did that! I haven’t seen you in ages. Where have you been?” I had now got my breathing in control.

“I had to sort things. Josh has been avoiding me lately, and I don’t know why. I haven’t done anything wrong.” I could hear confusion in his voice. Josh and Connor were always so close, they were brothers! I knew why he was avoiding him, and it was because of me.

A couple of months ago, at Connors birthday party, me and josh got really drunk. We said things to each other we didn’t mean like ‘I love you’ or ‘I wonder what you look like when you don’t have your top on’. One thing led to another, and then out of the blue, we started to kiss. It didn’t go any further. Of course Connor was to busy with his friends to catch us kissing. Ever since then, I haven’t spoken to Josh.

“Did you find out why he’s been avoiding you” I asked, hoping he didn’t know the truth.

“No, but he said that he’s really sorry, and that he will tell me tonight.”

“Well I wouldn’t worry about it. It’s such a good day, so we shouldn’t go spoiling it!” I replied, splashing him lightly.

An hour went by, and we were interrupted by Connors phone. It was josh. He received a text saying:

Meet me at the airport in 30 mins. We need to talk, and I don’t wanna talk at home.

With that, Connor headed back home, got changed, and said goodbye before driving to the airport.

I decided to go back inside myself, since it was beginning to get chilly. I glanced at my clock and it read 7:30pm. Connor should be back soon, he’s been gone for hours.

Just then I heard a car pull up the drive way next door. I peered out my window and noticed Connor, slamming his door shut. Josh couldn’t have told him? Not without asking me first? 

A huge bang came from my front door.

“Chantel! I know you’re in there! Open the door!!!!” it was pretty obvious that he knew. I took deep breaths before opening the door, revealing an angry Connor. His eyes were puffy and red, and his cheeks were stained with tears.

“Come in. I know what you’re gonna say, so you might as well come in” I said, thinking of ways of how this conversation’s going to end.

“How could you do this to me Chantel? You’re my best friend and you go ahead and kiss my brother?!”

“I-I was” before I could finish he cut me off.

“You know, I wouldn’t have minded you going off kissing any guy at my party, but I didn’t expect you to go for my brother”. There was huge disappointment in his voice, and I had no reason to feel sorry for myself.

“I was really drunk Connor, and so was Josh! It just happened! It didn’t mean anything!!” I was now yelling at him, it felt like the only way I could get through to him. He tried avoiding eye contact with me, but he didn’t succeed. I cupped his cheeks in my hands and whispered “I’m sorry.” That’s all I could say. How could I make up for what I had done? “I didn’t mean to cause any trouble between you and-“

“Don’t you dare say his name!” he was yelling back, and he had all the reason to.

“Just remember Connor, it wasn’t just me who did bad. There was another set of lips!”

“Don’t you think I know that!”

We stood in silence for a couple of minutes before he spoke again.

“I thought you were special.” He then gave out a small laugh, “I even fell for you”. He looked away in disgust.   

I couldn’t believe the words coming out of his mouth. I even fell for you. I let my hands slip away from his face, trying to get my head around what he was saying. I always knew there was a connection between us, but none of us spoke about it. I thought we would always stay as friends, and nothing more. But then I never thought I would go and kiss Josh.

“Oh so you decide to tell me this now?! After all these years of knowing each other! How long have you felt this way?” my anger started to rise in the pit of my stomach.

“Chant-“

“How long?!” I needed to know. There was no way out of this conversation. He took a deep breath. I started to search for answers in his eyes. Those brown hazel eyes that were similar to the ones Josh had. No! Stop it! Connor is your main focus now!

He moved towards me, closing the gap between us.

“Ever since I laid my eyes on you”. A tear ran down his cheek, knowing that he can never think of me that way again, not after what I have done. He wiped away his tears, and walked away, closing the door behind him.

I sunk to the ground sobbing, with my face in my hands. I had just lost my best friend. What have I done?