Ashey purdy how did you know?

ashley purdy how did you know? chapter 4

Emily’s P.O.V

Its Saturday morning 6 am to be exact and I’ve just woken up. As I get dressed ready to go to ballet I can’t help but think over how fat I look in my leotard and tutu. I sigh, and turn to go down stairs.

The second I walk down the stairs all I get off my mother is “do well at ballet don’t prove you self to be a failure” and a kiss on the cheek She offers to make me breakfast and I almost gag just at the mention of it. I manage to make up a quick excuse.

She also offered to give me a lift seeing as it would take me two hours to get there. I tell her that it doesn’t start to 8:15 and I don’t like hanging around and I want to stretch my legs.

When in truth I was disgusted with myself for the binge I had yesterday I had to have eaten 500 calories! I was disgusted with myself so I wanted to burn 1000 calories to punish myself.

As I run I start to get tired so I reminded myself of what I had done and soon I was running again. I can’t believe I let myself do that I mean how fat must I be I get tried so easily running it goes to show what being fat does to you kids so don’t be.

When I arrived at ballet it was 8:00 and Lauren was waiting for me inside. She said the same horrible smirk on her face. Lauren was 5ft 8 tall with long curly hair brown eyes and sun kissed skin.

She was also a complete bitch to me. I don’t know why but she seemed to have made it her personal vendetta to destroy my confidence even further than it already was destroyed.

She gave me a vindictive smile and said “hmmm so the fat pig has decided to walk to ballet? Well it’s not going to work look at the size of you!” While laughing her evil laugh

I already know I’m fat why has she got to rub it in? I just shrug at her and start stretching we start off by doing 1st position and went all the way through to 5th position. Then we did Demi plié, Grand plié, Tendu, Degashe and Releve.

When we finally finished I know what I mentioned didn’t seem like a lot but in between her bitching at me and demanding I do things again it had to be a least 9:00 pm.

I was absolutely shattered but if it meant my mother was proud of me it was worth it right? Also I was worried of having to make a two hour journey back on foot through I rarely rare area but as Lauren said “don’t worry no-one would want a fat pig like you” I nodded agreeing with her before starting home