It's Complicated

Chapter 1

“Veronica, wait!” Adam yelled. “Wait!” He repeated getting closer.

I turned on my heel to face him and swallowed a shaky breath “No, I'm done, Adam! I'm done pretending that everything is okay, that I am okay.” I told him my voice slightly cracking. “I'm done thinking that you care, I am so done waiting for something to happen with you!”

For a second I thought his face looked pained. For a second I fell for his act, but when I said I was done; It meant I was done. Through; with all the bullshit.

“You can't say that, Veronica! You can't just tell me you're done, because it's me who should be the one that's done.”

My patience was growing thin. All this time of bottling up my feelings and emotions were building up an overwhelming feeling inside of me and I needed to let it out. Now.

My mouth formed and O shape and I drew in an angry breath. “Excuse me? No, no, no. You are the one who never knows what to do. You're always scared to make a move on me and then when we don't have whatever we have when we have it, I see you talking to other girls so freely and carelessly. You make a move on them like it's second nature and I feel like I’m some sort of alien freak who literally scares you!” I paused for a moment regaining my breath.

“Remember a long time ago when we met? You were yourself. You were Adam. The real Adam. Where's that guy? That's the guy I want, not this guy you put up for me.” I admitted.

Adam looked at me angrily and it's like something inside of him snapped. “Are you fucking kidding me?” he said with a humorless dry laugh. He looked at me for a while and finally burst.

“I am scared of you, Veronica!” He yelled throwing his hands up in the air.

I looked at him unwillingly and bit my bottom lip expecting the worst.

“You scare me so badly.” Adam told me softly, but then regained his tough and loud angry voice.

“I never know what to do or say around you, because I don't know what's right anymore! You are the most complicated girl; person, I have ever met. You seriously have no clue how you make me feel! The reason I don't make a move on you? Well it isn't because I'm scared too, actually yeah it is my second nature, but I just I can't do anything around you anymore, because you scare me shitless.”

“I know you get bored easily, Veronica. I know you get annoyed fast. I know you have this perfect guy made up in your head. I know you talk to a lot of guys and I don't know if it's just as friends, and I don't know where I fall. I'm not perfect. I'm scared to say or do the wrong thing around you and you'll run away from me because I'm not that perfect guy. I'm scared to lose you. I'm scared for something real to happen between us because I know that in just a second I can lose you.”

 I looked at him, and I mean really looked at him.

I wasn't only looking at him because he was just unexplainably gorgeous or because his big full lips where yelling at me to kiss them, or because his eyes looked beautiful under the light we were in. No, I was looking at him because Adam....

The captain of the basketball team, the baseball player, the jock, the tough guy was scared!? Most importantly of ME. That just made me burst with a pleasurable happiness inside, but it made me angry to think about some of the things he had said.

So I did what any reasonable girl would do and I slapped him.

Hard. On the cheek.

His head went sideways and his hand flew upwards to caress it. “What the hell was that for!?” He asked angrily, his jaw clenching.

“For being stupid! You're an idiot! You know that right?” I told him shaking my head impatiently.

“Why in the hell would you just make that decision on yourself, huh!?” I yelled glaring at Adam.

I realized he probably had no clue what I was off about so I continued my rant. “You think you fall under the guys I talk to? No, idiot. You are on top off them. ALL of them, they're only friends. The guy I met is the guy you are, Adam. I never wanted for you to be scared of me, because that only meant putting on an act for me and I hate it! You are the most perfect guy that has ever been in my life and you always will be!” I yelled.

I don't even know why I was yelling, but I was and it felt good. I wanted him to know how stupid he was in thinking I didn't care about him and that I'd runaway.

“I never, ever get bored or annoyed by you, Adam. I'm the one that's afraid of losing you, that's why I need my space sometimes because I'm scared of caring even more for you because you wanna know something? I think I already care enough. More than enough! It's not easy! It's tough being in love!” I yelled furiously with a tear rolling down my cheek.

“Oh yeah!?” He retorted mimicking my angry expressions. “You think it's not tough being in love with someone like you!? You are such a roller coaster, Veronica! You drive me crazy, but I love you!”

“Then what the hell are you waiting for to do something about it!?” I yelled loudly.

He smirked and closed the space between us putting his hand on the back of my head to push me closer to his face.

“Nothing.” He whispered and with that said, his lips came crashing down to mine.