Well I suppose I should start out with saying this, Christmas isn't just about giving and getting, its about remembering-both the good times and the bad. I often get asked by people around this time of the year "If you could have anything, what would you want most for Christmas?" And I think that the majority of them expect me to reply with either, a cure for cancer, my legs back, or to have my old life back again. But the fact is this, sure I'd love to have my life and legs back, hell I miss walking, and I would certainly love a cure for cancer, and if I truly could wish for something and it would come true I think most people would expect me to wish for that. But I wouldn't, and I'll tell you why. Without my disease its true that I would probably have a better life, a better chance of living, and I can't speak for everyone like me, but for me at least, the following is true: through my struggles and my pains I met someone who was worth living for. I met someone who I gave my heart and soul to gladly. I can't imagine a world where he had never existed, where I had never known him, never loved him. Call me crazy or stupid or whatever, but I would rather have struggled through life with him than never known him at all. So this is what I wish, this is my dream, that he was still here, that I could spend one more Christmas with him, one more day, just one more day to tell him all the things I never said, one more hour to read him the stories I didn't finish, one more minute to be next to him, one more second to love him. That is my wish, and I know it won't come true, hell its impossible, but if I could wish for anything, it would be time, just more time, for love, for life, for him.
