2- TRIGGER WARNING ⚠

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by savedshawn

by savedshawn

*next day*
Laur's pov
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I got up and looked out the window to see my mom.
"Oh my god." I thought to myself.
"What is she doing here?"
I quickly put on my jacket and run outside.

"Mom what are you doing here? She didn't reply. She didn't even look up at me.
"Mom?"
I try to run inside but she grabs me.
She looks at me.
"Stop." She says
"Stop what?"
"Cutting"
"W-what?" She let's me go and I run inside.
*alarm rings*
I jump up and turn it off.
It was all a dream.
What does this mean?
Nobody knows I cut. Has she been watching me?
I can't help but cry.
I can't stand the thought of anybody finding out especially Shawn and my dad. They would be so devastated. Then Shawn would find out how much of a fuck up I am.
I always screw things up.
I'm such a failure.
My phone starts ringing again. I see it's Shawn.

S: hey laur!

L: hey! How was the show last night?

S: great! My fans are amazing!

L: yea they are!

S: so I'm almost to the airport. I can't wait to see you!

L: I can't wait to see you either. But what's so special about me? I'm a potato

S: no you're not you're beautiful laur.

L: no I'm not shawn. Stop lying. It's okay I already know. I'm ugly.
Tears began to appear in my eyes.

S: you're gorge-
I interrupted him

L: I love you shawn but I haveto go have a safe flight see you later.
I hung up. I got down a box from my closet and got out my blades.
I started cutting my wrist.
I watch the blood run down my arm as tears stream down my face.
I just want to be happy, but that's never going to happen because my depression always drags me back deeper into my sadness.
I just want to love myself as much as I love other people.
I just want someone to hug me and tell me it's going to be okay.
I just want Shawn, but he doesn't like me. He probably thinks I'm annoying and ugly and fat.
I just want to die.

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I know this is short haha
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