Love Has Died (ON HOLD)

Prologe - Erik's POV

I sat on the bed in my room injecting more morfine into my body. I did anything to forget the pain. Gustave was upstairs shunning me like usual. He hated me, and for what I didn't know. I understand my face but I just don't know why he hates me as he does.
I walked up to Gustaves room and sighed knocking on the door. "G-Gustave....... please... open the door.." I said through the door. Gustave sighed and opened the door "What do you want?!" He yelled at me. "I just wanted to know if you wanted something to eat or if you'd like to come read or make music with me...." I said. I wanted desperatly for Gustave to love me. I love him and wanted him to accept me as his father. When he nodded my eyes lit with joy and I could tell he knew it made me happy because he smiled. Gustave took my hand which surprised me greatly and he pulled me to the music room. I sat at the piano and he sat near me. "Can we play the song mother sang that night at Phantasma?" He asked and I nodded as i started to play. He waited for the intro to finish then he started to sing; for a boy he had a very high vocal range which surprised me. He soon stopped singing and had tears on his face and was no longer smiling. I stopped playing and audimaticly threw my arms around my son. "Shh... Gustave tell me whats wrong... im here.. its okay..." I whispered to him. He started to sob and said "I miss mama!" through sobs. I sighed and kissed his head "I do too..." I whispered and held onto my son. "Its okay son... im here..." I said softly holding him close. "I-i just want her back! I miss her!" He sobbed and tears came to my eyes. "Gustave.. I know how you feel... your mother was my muse... the love of my life... i loved and still love her so much.. trust me... i wish i could have her back.." I whispered and he stayed sobbing. I wiped his eyes and kissed his forehead. "Gustave.. you know.. im your father and i truely do love you.." I said with a small glimmer of hope that he'd say he loves me back. "I-i think its okay to say this..." he said and paused for a moment and took a deep breath "i...."